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HAPPY 21st! :)

2010-10-02T15:34:00.003+08:00

Milers committee members

Movie outing at The Curve

At the Milers first meeting peak

HAPPY AWESOME 21st, Kevin Kwan! :)

It's been 4 years that I know you, and all these while, you have been a very very awesome friend to me! Whether when you're being my leader or just peer, you're just so understanding and not demanding. All in all, thank you for withstanding my 'princess' behaviour at times and when I annoy you. :)

Friend forever, alright, birthday boy? :)

September

2010-09-18T12:11:00.003+08:00

I have abandoned my blog for 3 months. -.-"

Well, in short, nothing much has happened in my life. There are due dates for everything, rushing and stressing to finish what I should finish. Set a stronger mindset in myself, that nothing is greater than my own will power to succeed.

I just feel like using Bahasa Melayu today. Lol. So, here's something I haven't done in a long time.

Tatkala di anjung pintu,

Langit yang biru,

Pokok yang hijau,

Burung-burung berterbangan,

Betapa lama sudahku abaikanmu.

Udara yang dihirup;

kadang-kala segar,

kadang-kala mual rasanya.

Entah, takdir yang menentukan semua,

atau pilihan di tanganku.

Di persimpangan,

Ku berdiri berseorangan,

Memandang ke kiri,

ke kanan,

utara, selatan, barat, timur;

tiada jawapan untukku.

Sukar, sangat sukar,

dan berat pikulanku;

apakah segalanya sudah diaturkan,

atau masih perlukanku untuk membuat pilihan;

tapiku, bencikan kuasa memilih,

ia menyedihkan,

ia menyeksakan,

tapi mungkin membahagiakan jua.

Updates

2010-06-26T23:08:00.004+08:00

Hi after such a long time! No, I am not dead- yet.

Currently munching on Twister (Sour cream and onion) and stalking other people's page on facebook.

Life has been as usual. There is times where it is filled with only the sweet memories, sometimes, sour and sometimes, I don't even want to open my eyes. I know, you must be thinking - 'but I always see See Wei smiling and laughing, has she ever felt upset before?'

The truth is, I do. I do get very sad. I do get very angry. I do get very annoyed. It is just that I choose to laugh it off, for the best result- everyone is happy then. What is the point of showing others your sad face or angry face? You won't do any good, you might even be hurting other people's feelings.

I believe in what I have learnt, and to apply:

In any situation, if you cannot do any good for others, then do no harm.

I am trying to improve on my surprising people's skills. I just fail almost every time, except for yesterday's dinner for my boyfriend's 22nd! :) I am improving! Just give me some time. Hee

Surely enough, everyday I will pray that I have the luck to only stay in my happy bubble. I don't even want anyone/ anything to be able to penetrate through and hurt me in any ways.

I really want to live in a happy bubble forever, free from worriness.

Summative

2010-05-25T09:24:00.004+08:00

This is it!

ALL THE BEST, ME208! :D

After this we are all in Semester 5! That's a more crazy semester to think about it.

Good times really tick tock away quickly. :(

towards the end

2010-05-12T08:31:00.008+08:00

Hi! I know it has been a long time since I last update. But, I am sure, no one comes and read my blog anymore tho.

Many many weeks ago, I just started my new semester, which many calls it a honeymoon semester. I cannot deny the fact that it is like one! Look at the amount of unfinished notes from the first day of lecture until now. Sighs. And, now, Summative for Semester 4 is in 15 days! :(

I don't want this 'honeymoon' semester to end so fast. It has been all good, except for the fact that I need to drive to uni everyday at super annoying timing (4-630pm)! Deng. It has been all good because I am much closer to Say Yee and Rui Yi, which both has been a very great friend and fun to me! And also, the newly created Eternity Metres.

I really do not want this semester to pass so quickly! :(

Renal week 2. oh Gosh!

2nd International conference to attend from Thurs- Sunday. Sounds fun! :)

the beginning of year 2010- semester 4

2010-02-24T01:40:00.008+08:00

End of semester break is coming to an end.

Things around are not changing much, perhaps then I should be proactive and change myself.

Things that will be different:

1. My lecture hours is the time which I nap everyday! (4pm- 630pm)

2. My boyfriend won't be around to assist me in everything I do. :(

3. I know a few of my PBL group mates.

4. There's 4 new systems to swallow for Summative 4.

5. I won't be eating much lunch outside; therefore I hope I will be able to save some money.

6. I am sure, I won't be going home as late as I used to.

7. I won't be a library furniture too.

I hate changes.

I lose faith easily when it comes to changes like this. I am what I am, and now I have to get used to the new environment. :(

Well, all in all, I will still continue my hobby - sell clothes to make girls look great with reasonable prices clothes! *click here*. Come visit!

Please God, give me strength to pull through year 2010.

Please provide me a little of the courage from the Tiger, as this is a Tiger year. Thank you.

USMLE Step 1

2010-02-10T23:41:00.004+08:00

I do not know how to phrase this.

I am feeling so anxious and my heart is beating so fast! I am not the one who is going to sit for the very very exclusive examination tomorrow, I am not the one who is going to sit for a exam which determines my future.

Well, but it is someone whom I love.

All the best dumbo! :)

I am going to wait patiently for the good news and my trip! :)

contented

2010-01-28T17:44:00.005+08:00

Holidays before Chinese New Year is always filled with spring cleaning.

I love cleaning like this because I do lose a bit of weight during this time! :)

And, since I have a blogshop now, I also have a new hobby other than shopping for online clothes, which is.. check my gmail! :) haha, silly i know!

Imagine, I can ignore my facebook and also my twitter??! :p

This is what business has changed me into - an email girl! :)

First batch's clothes was collected this afternoon. Hopefully everything goes well and more people will visit my blogshop from time to time!

To visit my blogshop, *click here*

2nd Malaysian International Medical Student Conference

2010-01-24T00:18:00.005+08:00

Hey there!

NOTE:
If you are a medical student, please do try to make it for the 2nd Malaysian International Medical Student Conference which is held annually.

Date: 13th May 2010- 16th May 2010
Time: starting from 6pm on the 13th.
Venue: Universiti Malaya

For more information, please visit *click here*

To get discount to attend this amazing eye opener conference, do be a member of Malaysian Medical Association (MMA) today! :)
*click here* to sign up!

To sign up to become a MMA Member
1) click on this link
2) click on "MMA Membership Form"
3) Print it out
4) Fill it up
5) Send it in and DONE!

new interest in selling clothes online

2010-01-20T23:11:00.005+08:00

Hello!

As most of you will know, I have a blog shop now. And, please do visit this blog and start ordering! :)

If you ask me why a blog shop?
Well I will say because I love looking at what people sell online, especially dresses and tops!! I feel happy seeing so much pretty clothes sold by others; and I don't have to drive all the way out there to get it. So, here I am, bringing happiness to you too!

Now, what is more convenient than this?

I am your friend; thus more trustable!
You can shop without leaving your home for beautiful dresses and tops!

So, do visit my blog shop at Brain-Braun-Beauty!

And, be a member of my blog shop in facebook today at *click here*! :)

confession

2010-01-17T00:26:00.006+08:00

I know it is very obvious when I tend to choose not to like a person, whether girl or guy.

I tend to keep a distance in the friendship/relationship.

I tend to look away often when talking just because I realized I am not comfortable with looking into the eyes and talk anymore.

Because I do not believe in being nice.

Being nice is one, but being happy and contented after being nice is hard.

And so, I choose to let myself be happier; after all, why do I live?

For myself, and for those I love.

I have to admit, many a times I do not seem to know how to appreciate what people do for me, especially those others think that he/she is super nice! And, I do not admire a person just because of how others judge them.

I choose who I want to love. Who I don't want.

This is whom I have became after struggling, whether to make myself happy or others.

Sorry for being selfish.

I just hate to be an actress, although I am a good one.

Love,
SeeWei

first week of Jan 2010

2010-01-12T12:30:00.019+08:00

My first week of January have been very fun.
The beginning of 2010 was awesome!

I started off 1st January playing mahjong and drinking.
2nd and 3rd January staying at home to be a good girl.
4th together with another 5 crazily fun uni mates in Genting and..
5th till 7th January with another 4 uni mates in Penang.

How can this not be good? :)
And later, 8th was princess's official 21st birthday. *smiles*

Bitter sweet of the Genting trip.

Rui Yi (who calls everyone babe) and I. :)

Our first lunch in Genting: hot rock (which was recommended by me)

The guys wanted to jump off! (knowing results will be release soon)

While waiting to get a place in the solero shot!

Us, 6. <3

When it was drizzling, we ate ice cream. RM3 for one, but delicious!

After 'EAT ALL YOU WANT' steamboat: filling.

*****
In Penang: (eat and eat and eat!)

Sunset Bistro
(Rui Yi in orange shirt, Myself and Xin Ying in brown)

My very first birthday surprise. :)

All of us, in Penang.

******
Back in KL, on 8th January:

Kevin appeared with a cake while I am busy eating.

my closest girls.

this is what they gave me for my 21st. :) Lol, made me look like a small kid, yes?

almost got a kiss from them. (i love you rui yi and say yee!)

I am very grateful for having these bunch of friends from university. They are indeed another part of treasure in my life, especially those that I got closer from Infinity Milers. I have to apologize if I have made them angry before and I am sure I did. :(
Now that we only have a year left to be with each other, we must treasure our time!

Rui Yi, you are a crazy girl yet fun! :)

Not forgetting, Mei Jiun who accompanied me through my last day of 20, and welcoming my 21st! :) Thanks baby!

jet plane

2010-01-03T17:28:00.002+08:00

I am leaving on a jet plane to somewhere where I have been wanting to go for a holiday. :)

For 4 days and 4 nights.

:)

holidays

2010-01-02T13:38:00.006+08:00

I am going Genting and Penang for 4 days!

This is how I should enjoy my break before anything happens.

I know, what is over and done, I should let it be as I cannot change the outcomes.

bye bye 2009; hello 2010!

2010-01-01T13:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010! :)

2009
How I celebrated my new year?

1. Exam ended at 10am.
2. Quarantined until 1215pm.
3. Watched Avatar 3D in Sunway Pyramid until 7 plus.
4. Dinner at Williams'. (last dinner in 2009 was pasta with ham and mushrooms)
5. Hang out at Justin's place while waiting for Li Ching to go back to her house so that we can go over. While waiting, we watched John Rambo.
6. I showered for the last time in 2009! yay!
7. Went over to Li Ching's house at 1130pm. Started playing mahjong and the one who made the winner win must drink.
8. New year!

2010.

1. We continue drinking while playing mahjong, and some went high.
2. Played ring of fire too! :) fun. i like!
3. Slept at 4am plus.
4. Woke up at 10.10am.
5. Drove Ying See and Vee Vee home. My first time driving in 2010 is driving them using Ying See's car.
6. Washed mum's car when I reached home.
7. Ate porridge.
8. ..... to be filled later.

I wished every year I can have a fun night like this to celebrate my new year!

eos 3- last day (day 4)

2009-12-31T15:22:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR's EVE! :)

Exam ended at 10am! wheee!

And I have no comment..

Just wonder why I cannot score it perfectly. :( as in, no matter how calm you are, you just have to miss something! sighs.

Just have fun for a week now, and what comes by.. will come.

yay!

Avatar 3d- I am coming in 1 hours time!

HAPPPYYY FABULOUS BIRTHDAY, to miss loo say yee!

eos 3- day 3

2009-12-30T20:24:00.004+08:00

i thought and i hoped it will be a good day or rather, a smooth exam day.

my first station

beep- read question. (tick tock tick tock 40 seconds gone)
beep beep- knock. start asking questions.
nice lady i would say. seriously! :)

5 minutes later. beep!

answer the questions related to the history taking.

OHMYGOD!

the trickiest station is JVP and liver palpation altogether. *i cannot smile anymore*

45 degrees than 0 degrees? kill me. :(

I remembered before walking in!

NO MORE! NO MORE this kind of mistake ever! you might kill someone with wrong diagnosis?

just one more day. keep it rolling, keep it going! ajajajaja fighting!

eos 3- day 2

2009-12-29T21:18:00.002+08:00

at the beginning

confidence level: 80%

after day 1

confidence level: 50%

after day 2

confidence level: 20% (just putting false hope)

I really really need to pass.

Oh God.

day 3 and day 4 must must be good. MUST. please.

EOS 3- day 1

2009-12-28T17:04:00.003+08:00

This is the start of world war 3; day 1.

I survived world war 2, and I hope I get to keep my upper limbs and lower limbs for world war 5. I really do.

p/s: world war 2 is actually my Semester 2 finals. and now, Semester 3 finals.

I need to survive.

Note to myself:
No matter how narrow is the stricture and no matter how strong is my opponent, I will never give up to look for a way out and I will not lose to myself.

the end of the 1.5 years relationship with the club

2009-12-17T11:27:00.004+08:00

throughout this years in university, i personally felt my shoulders; the burden gets heavier each and everyday.

sometimes, there's not enough time for everything that you want to do, but you just have to make time for it. and, even if you plan ahead, the plan might never turn out to be the way you want it to be. things just don't follow the way you want it to be.

just yesterday, i told myself i am not going to tear in front of the juniors. i am going to be a strong girl. proud enough, i hold my tears till i went home, watched an hour of drama and cried for 5 minutes because the ending of the drama was very touching as well. how fate came to me right? having a drama ending on the night when my relationship; my responsibility towards the only club i have truly loved is over. last year, at the moment my seniors were stepping down, handing the club to us, i cried.

does this mean i have grown?

this is really going to be weird. my only escape every Wednesday. my only reason i cannot study every Wed night is now no longer there. i am going to miss my every Wed training with rain or no rain very much.

well, most importantly, the club will still stay strong under the juniors, and shine as much as it could.

always, to infinity and beyond!

appreciation

2009-12-15T14:51:00.003+08:00

most of us, never know how to appreciate the people around us. and this includes me.

for a moment, you can say, 'i am not going to make my mum upset anymore or gosh, i am not gonna let myself feel bad for doing this to him/her anymore because it hurts.' the next moment, you turn around and you make your mum upset again.

hah. caught you! so..

count, how many times have you said that you will appreciate this person, that person and bla bla?

i was reading M's blog just 10 minutes ago. And, i cried publicly. the two person sitting behind me now in the computer lab must be thinking i have some mental problem or i just had a break up online. :p No kidding.

the reason why i always cry when i read her blog is because i feel this world is really unfair to her.. taking away the person she love so much, leaving her so sudden, and leave her living in misery. she was one of the very bubbly type of girls whom you can laugh all night with her, and she's very sincere in everything she does as well. but why?

from her, i really learnt nothing can be compared to love and good health; not even success. what is success if without love? love from the family, love from your partner, love from your friends.

i will rather live in a bubble of happiness and love than in a bubble of wealth and success.

the worse thing of all, i never get to finish reading every posts that are written in her blog, because i always close the window before i cry like a small baby. i have no courage to finish reading it, why?

M, i believe he is there, guarding you from the above. And that he is happy there too. please, take care of yourself.

fate and hard work

2009-12-13T10:59:00.005+08:00

have you ever wondered, how long can you love the person you are loving now or once upon a time ago?

and what if.. he/she changes into someone whom you don't seem to know anymore?

will you try to adapt, change him/her or leave?

no matter which you choose, sometimes I personally think things should be made clear even before you get together with him/her. telling him/her there's no point of return if one day you turn into this this and this. sounds demanding, but.. for the future, it is worth.

because..
you don't want to hurt yourself and of course, you won't want to hurt the one you love.

someone once told me, you should always tell how you feel to your partner, or he'll never know how you feel, what you hope etc etc.. in fact, this is easier said than done for a girl like me. i cry more than anything.

when i am angry, i cry. when i am sad, i cry even more. :(

then at last you will tell yourself, if in future it is not meant to be, no matter how hard you work at the relationship right now, it is going to be a waste.

p/s: i believe in fate and hard work.

And I am glad and thankful that I still have my best friend sending me big big hugs when I need them. :) Thank you for being there!

this is her. :)

yay yay yayyyyy!

2009-11-05T18:52:00.002+08:00

sorry peeps, i know it has been long.

so much things going on in my daily life- though it feels the same everyday!

well, just a short update:

i AM going for my second mountain climbing next Friday! This time it is Gunung Besar Hantu, located in Negeri Sembilan. This mountain is not as high as the first mountain I have climbed, but it is still exciting! :) Only 2 days and 2 nights.
i have my exam on the same day i am leaving for the mountain!
i have been reminiscing alot these days. :)
i have again start to love running!
i ate Korean food with a bunch of hyper-loving people who have the same interest with me. (milers!)
i love small little surprises! (just when i am typing these- bf gave me a surprise)
1 week to exam and i am going to watch movie later! life's good.

i shall be back with more stories after my climb. of course, i will hope all my readers will pray for all the climbers for safety and safety. :) thanksss!

treasure hunt mate's birthday

2009-09-25T18:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPPPPYY BIRTHDAYYYYYY, Wen Peng! :)
It's your 20th!

woke up at 7am today because it was Wen Peng's birthday and I had to meet Say Yee at 750am to get cake at 8 plus from RT Pastry. :)

Mark planned a surprise for him. We waited and waited for everyone to gather at the tennis court nearby his house so that we can crash his house together, and that was around.. i cannot remember. Hahah. Malaysians are never punctual. :(

Then, his sister became our spy, to help us open the house door and lead us to his room. There... Wen Peng was still nicely sleepy with his face facing the wall and hugging his comforter to tightly. We lighted the yummmyyy Green Tea cake and stood around his bed and started singing the happy birthday song.

LOL + ROFL!

he slowly turned to us, and got a shock! should see his shock face, something you will never get to see often. :p he didn't scream unfortunately. he thought he was still dreaming! then, he blew the cake when he's still semi-awake and changed.

went off to One Utama for lunch at Sushi Zanmai and wanted to watch a movie. but, there were not enough tickets for us, so we went off to a journey of eating desserts (equivalent to spending money). We went Delicious to eat the classic chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream. Then, Haagen Dazs to have ice creams, and some had Starbucks mocha. :)

it was a fun and tiring day. *pics are with Precilia.

and imy.

heys! (24/9)

2009-09-24T23:22:00.005+08:00

i have been sneezing so much lately!

p/s: thus, i suggest those studying pharmacy please come up with a genius solution for people like me.. create a drug for cold/ runny nose that doesn't cause sleepiness at all. somehow, clarinase is still sedative to me. :(

not like i haven't been getting enough sleep, not like i haven't been playing or having fun, not like.. i haven't been shopping or watching movie.. :( not like... i am not having a holiday!

in fact, i did all! :)

watched 2 movies. shop till my leg and purse hurts! :) and i am still going out.

so many people's birthday this coming month! i am officially broke. if you want me to go for a lunch with you, please treat me kay? :) *hint/ thank youuu for being so nice.

and you know what! that bubble tea shop aunty didn't sell me bubble tea this morning because i was early by 8 minutes, and the bubbles were not soaked long enough yet. BOOO! :(

and i realized, i am becoming more.. kiddish again; or should i say i didn't change at all??! friends, please bear with me. i think this is a form of stress.

and i watched House Season 6 episode 1 this afternoon! :) not very bad, but not really that exciting! i am waiting for moreeeee.. come diagnosis, come!

and pimples, please stop popping out! and those bacteria, please stop growing. thank youuu!

have a pleasant Raya break!

fun times

2009-09-24T23:14:00.005+08:00

oh, and i went for a conference in the beginning of the Sept and a CF camp the following weekend! :) I miss that 2 care-free weekends which i spent most my time with boyfriend and friends playing monopoly deal!

On the way back to the Palace of the Golden Horses, after having dinner at Saloma.

Monopoly deal time during break, i think. we play whenever we have free time. :)

Addictive and fun!!!

The group in CF CHUP Camp. We are the 'Coke tak mau gula'.
p/s: boyfriend is missing from this picture. he's the camera-man.

does my hair looked short? hmm, it's hallucination.

I REALLY REALLY HAD FUN!

oh happpy day! (18/8)

2009-08-18T21:47:00.004+08:00

this was what happened today, after having lunch with the boyfriend. i went to attend a treasure hunt briefing session with Wen Peng and another few guys. So, the boyfriend got a chance to go to stuffs behind me, which was unexpected. I thought he will head to the library to study. So, yes, I seriously thought so.

When I came back after busy-ing, randomly bf asked me..

bf: What are the phases in developing asthma?
me: HUH???? *almost going to cry* I don't know?
bf: *stares* you don't know?
me: *watery puppy eyes* I will look for the answer now.
bf: *waiting for the answer*
me: eik, what is this? *turns the booklet around* OMGGG!!! It is the MLTR concert tickets! :) :)
bf: *smiles so happily*
me: oh, the phases are sensitization- allergic-immediate-last phase!
bf: yeaps.
me: still cannot believe my eyes that I got the tickets! OMG YAY YAY! are you expecting me to cry?
bf: nolah! *smiles*

I am so happy! It will be my first concert, with the one I love! :)
What can make me more happy than getting this kind of surprise right? (makes me feel like I am some princess, and my prince came by on a white horse! haha.)

Yes, I love my boyfriend! <3

... after a while..

me: I feel like screaming out loud, dear! I am so happy!
bf: scream lah.
me: but I am in the quiet zone of the library! argh.

I think my boyfriend cannot stand me already. I want to do, then don't want to do. Haha, everything also I say. :p

I am still so happy, despite trying to withstand my runny nose. :)

8/8/09

2009-08-08T17:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Pei Li and Carr Men!

At times, I really wonder, when can i get my courage back since I last lose it?
When can I really do something, because I really want to do it, and not just mere responsibilities made me do it.

When when?

after a long time

2009-08-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

i really really don't know what to update anymore.

some things are better to be kept, than announced.

some things are better to be told personally, than to make it known publicly.

must every good things come to an end? (no!)
must people realize something is really that important to them after they lose it?
how do you prove you really care about that important person/ thing?
so, how do you gain the important thing back after you lose it?
how do you even get over the fact that you lose it?

i for sure, will cry till my glands go dry. (ha-ha)

can't life just be more simple? say what you want, do what you want.

at least that is how i manage my life.

my eyes will betray me. my eyes lead you to the truth.

so yes, i think people's eyes don't tell lies.

p/s: not emo here; in fact in pretty good mood. hah! just.. felt like posting questions.

want and don't want

2009-06-21T11:51:00.002+08:00

i want to go to the beach!

i want to go to the highland. eg: Genting to play! (going going!)

i don't want holiday to end!

T.T

what should i do now?

to my dear friends who has been constantly studying for tomorrow, i wish you ALL THE BEST!
i will see you guys back very very soon!

i remember saying this to a friend, 'if no fate, have faith then.'

:) have a great weekend!

p/s: i am currently IN LOVE with super cute and colourful cupcakes.

wheee

2009-06-13T13:01:00.004+08:00

i just want to spend the rest of my holidays...

having my busy boyfriend spending as much time with me!
updating about myself to Mei Jiun and vise versa.
pampering my brain, which means least thinking is required!
pampering myself with loads of.. food and bla bla?
having lesser pimples before semester 3!
get my treasure hunt plan done very very impressively. :)
lose 1kg? *laughs*
run again, without having the knees and foot to pain again.
go shopping!
sleep, eat, chat, play, sleep, eat, chat.. play!
laugh and laugh, meeting people who are back from overseas!
be a good girl, sleeping and waking up at the right time.

okay, time to get all this done!

miss phrase

2009-06-08T23:06:00.003+08:00

you know, when I said 'but i am not letting go, i believe there is still much to believe in'.

I really meant it.

I should keep that phrase deep deep in my heart and make it my favourite phrase. :)

Yes, I love you miss phrase!

I heard this on tv on Friday and today, when I was watching the repeat of the drama. It says,

we always chase after what we want and dream of,
after getting what we want, we will be afraid of losing it.
but when the fear of losing it accumulates, we will be losing more.

its for your thought. true, no?

New Balance Klang Pacers 1/2 Marathon (7/6/09)

2009-06-07T19:33:00.005+08:00

i did it! i made it!

okay, i ran and jogged like a snail all the way! something to be proud of - i did not walk at all because i know once i walk, i will not jog all the way anymore. i couldn't feel my leg at the last 5km!

it was the half marathon- 21km!

i am happy! :)

the boyfriend accompanied me ran the last 200m to the finishing! :)

i am happier!

i have altogether 3 blisters, I think. :( The knee caps felt like it is going to drop out! I cannot feel the joint properly joined. What more, the pain which is medial to my foot which started to pain after 2km and now reached the ankle. Practically, I am not going to walk so much for a few days!

oh, pain! :(
i am happy still because i am satisfied with it.

thank you Ying See for accompanying me through out the run, it made the run more relaxing and fun! :)

It wasn't easy, but it paid off. its always 'just a bit more to go.'

the pain

2009-06-04T02:12:00.002+08:00

its time for the disease to attack. its back, the insomnia.

every time i run, there is a pain which i cannot describe on my left foot. slowly, it pulls the ankle to pain along too.

why can't I endure the pain? why can't I distract myself from it? why is my body treating it like a foreign feeling, which must be diminished?

WHY??

i am afraid, not only the laziness that make me run less; the spirit that I once had for running has gone; the feeling for me to complete the half marathon without giving up halfway is fading; the cause of the pain which is never cured ever since is troubling.

i don't want to disappoint myself. maybe I shouldn't have signed up in the first place- being peer pressured. I don't want to disappoint those whom got pressured from me and then followed me unwillingly signed up for this, and the one whom encouraged me all the way to never give up (not even if my foot got to be amputated).

i asked myself today while running- why do I run? what is your purpose of running today?

now I ask myself, when was the last time I ran because I love running? honestly, its been a long time. maybe a few months.

Mei Jiun, the Ipod you bought for my birthday was helpful today, it made me ran although it is just that small distance. I remember how I used to tell you about running and sports, about the club that I am in... and made you came into conclusion and be happy for me that I have found what I like, and bought me the red Ipod. :)

What if?

if i say

2009-05-30T11:53:00.001+08:00

if i say i am happy, i may be lying.

if i say i am happy, i may not be lying.

i need to find the See Wei back, who does things only because she wants to do it, and no influence.

anonymous

2009-05-25T14:32:00.002+08:00

We convince ourselves that life will be better once we are married, have a baby, then another.

Then we get frustrated because our children are not old enough, and that all will be well when they are older.

Then we are frustrated because they reach adolescence and we must deal with them. Surely we’ll be happier when they grow out of the teen years.

We tell ourselves our life will be better when our spouse gets his/her act together, when we have a nicer car, when we can take a vacation, when we finally retire.

The truth is that there is no better time to be happy than right now.
If not, then when?
Your life will always be full of challenges. It is better to admit as much and to decide to be happy in spite of it all.

For the longest time, it seemed that life was about to start. Real life.
But there was always some obstacle along the way, an ordeal to get through, some work to be finished, some time to be given, a bill to be paid. Then life would start.
I finally came to understand that those obstacles were life.

That point of view helped me see that there isn’t any road to happiness.
Happiness IS the road.

Happiness is a voyage, not a destination.

There is no better time to be happy than… NOW!
Live and enjoy the moment.

-Author unknown

Well, I read this from Ken Hon's blog. I think everyone should read it.

Have a great day ahead everyone!

believe - 22/5

2009-05-22T16:29:00.003+08:00

but i am not letting go, i believe there is still much to believe in.

you know the feeling of.. someone is just always there for you no matter what?
whether the tree falls and obstruct your way, whether the storm is here, whether that person is having a bad day..
they are still there for you?
i know how it feels and i am grateful. :)

i have my boyfriend and very very supportive friends; the old ones and the a few months old friends. they would call to check on me making sure that i am okay and remind me to search for my old self back.

i know, i need the confidence i once had, and the die-die attitude.

to levin, yes i owe you for that, in 1.5 months.

now, i can run and do anything i want! :)
but i have made a deal with the boyfriend, its the death sentence, no way of me turning back. :(
but me like it! :)

this is what you call paradox.

when i know you are always there for me, i am always there for you too.

where the rainbows end

2009-05-20T10:53:00.002+08:00

i stalked an old friend of mine's blog! *random*

i have to admit, sometimes once things are uttered, there is no way you can take your words back, no matter how much that person loves you. he is hurt, hurt by what you have said.

i know all of us love being spoilt, i have to admit i love being spoilt too.

guess, it was just like the book I am reading now 'Where the Rainbows end' where the cardiologist realises his marriage is already after the honeymoon period and that he and his wife are no longer attracted to one another. who says a doctor must marry a doctor? both wouldn't have time for each other, just like what it is written on the book. When he actually gets to go home and sleep after a day's on-call, the wife needs to leave home for her shift. :(

Somehow, I just felt like saying, we should appreciate things around us and never expect much.

The higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment..

*****

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Angel! :)

15th May

2009-05-16T13:17:00.002+08:00

once in a while, eventhough you are standing or walking in a crowd, you might still feel..

lonely.

it makes me wonder why sometimes.

its been a long time i didn't go out with my silly friends, Yen Yee and Kelsey. So, we went out to Jeth's Cafe yesterday night to have a drink, and then the mischievous us took jenga to play. Its not fun if there is no proper drink to accompany us, thus lead us to ordering a bottle of Heineken.

i am not a play-game-person! sure drink one!

ho-ho, I was the first to make the jenga fall. I am not as bad as Kelsey because she made it fell twice! :p And, Yen Yee is the pro!

then we were so random, Yen Yee suggested we should drive to the graveyard to just have a look, which scares Kels and I. Then, I suggested we should go to the general hospital to hang out, look at any handsome doctor on call at 12am! Kels thinks that Yen Yee and I were crazy. Lol.

No life, I call this. No where to go, I call this. But, its fun! I haven't been laughing so much I tell you, every minute there is something funny.

Tomorrow, 15km! Yes, we will just all do it. All you have to do is run and compete against yourself, not others. Beat the time you set for yourself, and be happy about it. As for me, I will run at my own pace, trying to finish the race for myself.

I will never do something for someone else because that motivational drive won't bring me far.
I am doing it for myself.
This is passion, this is my drive, my call.

Run well to all participants! :)

why?

2009-05-14T16:58:00.002+08:00

after the exams, the target is to lose some weights which i have gained in a month.

preparations for the exam was crazy. thus, lead to eating almost every 2 hours!
exam papers were crazy too, leading to more eating now.

well, after 4 weeks of not running, i went for training yesterday. the smart me went without having lunch and my breakfast was a cup of mocha ice blended. this brought me to hypoglycemia during training. i learnt my lesson to at least eat something before training, this is not fun. not even reaching 1 km, i felt like throwing up and my head was dizzy.

but i have a 15km run this Sunday!

so, running at my own pace, slowly.. like a tortoise, together with my comrades.

this is not fun. i don't know how i am going to run through the whole 15km this Sunday. I hope there is no hill-ly up and down!

maybe I have lost my drive, my motivational drive to run. I tried searching it back, but I failed.

why am I making myself so upset and disappointed nowadays? why am I not doing any good?

why?

its over for now

2009-05-12T17:03:00.004+08:00

i guess.. its time for me to pray harder now.

i really don't want to feel so pessimistic, which is going to be necrotism soon.

how to enjoy life when i am worried? :(

life is sad and complicated.

oh, and can someone teach me how to turn over someone who is ego to be less ego?

its star trek at 920pm later!

i am sleepyyyy... due to too much information drainage. somehow, i am surprised at myself, wondering how did i even survived my SPM, which has 11 subjects and for sure more than a weeks' exam?

amazed.

i miss my best friend.

something/everything

2009-05-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

i only know something, but not everything!

so, yes.. i am praying for the best.

please do not torture me.

*prays prays*

no matter what, i will try my best.

to all my batchmates, ALL THE BEST!

what is limit?

2009-04-26T10:38:00.002+08:00

"push the human limit to the maximum", that was what i have been told.

the human limit is not just what you thought you can do. its more than that. take running for an example, you sign up for a 12km race, when you have never ran for at least half of it, 6km. i am sure, you will have doubt, to whether you can finish the race or not. but once you have started running the 1st km, you will soon run the second, third... 10th km, and the last 2km.

you ended the race in the qualifying time.

the night before the race, you were worried, as to whether you will give up half way and call the ambulance or to get the finisher's medal. but now!

you should be proud of yourself. you have MADE IT!

the first race, 12km.

more to come, from 5km to 10km to 15km... and 21.1km in June.

if i don't push myself to the limit, i will never know what i can achieve. same goes to everyone that reads this. try running a 2.2km for the first time, you will know. you may just think, its just 2.2km.

"never underestimate anything, including the distance of the route." i have been told.

true story

2009-04-22T10:18:00.003+08:00

have you ever wonder why people always leave?

well, just this morning, i read a letter, written by K to C; you can count that as a confession letter and also the giving up letter.

i have never seen someone being able to love and sacrifice for another person like this guy. he put in all his heart to make her feel happy, be with her when she's upset. but what did he get at the end of the day?

disappointment.

therefore, he decided that it is time to stop loving her.

because it is not worth.

how long would you wait for someone and still love her/him?

ask me, and i will tell you - DON'T wait, for all you might know, you are missing out something even better just because you are hanging onto something that you are unsure about.

when people stop loving you, they leave you.
but some, they stop loving you, but they are still there with you.

p/s: i am not talking about my life story here. just an experience on what i read. :(

so touching.

my angel

2009-04-02T16:53:00.004+08:00

maybe its been a long time since i last saw a real adorable baby who will make my heart melt.

and, she's a baby girl i saw today. :) she's a malay baby girl, but i silently gave her a name, Angel.

i almost kidnapped her.

or, should i say, i want a baby too?

hahah.. at 20!

it felt so good when you put one of your fingers in her hand, and she would grab it.

then, open her little small eyes

trying to smile..

then yawn.

was worried when she wanted to cry so many times..

but i don't think i mind holding her if i was capable of.

she's a neonate! just came to this world yesterday. :)

awwww..

i will miss her, my angel with yik hin as my buddy for loving this baby!

drowning

2009-03-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

i was sitting by the window in one of the wards in the hospital today, i observed the movement of the clouds, the weather. and i ended up writing how i felt in this poem.

tatkala di sisi tingkap,
awan kelihatan putih
dibelakangi biru,
ia mendung,
ia cerah,
demi perubahan menurut angin.

adakah cinta juga demikian?
mendung dan cerah,
berselang-seli.
pasang dan surut,
berselang-seli.
tiada yang cerah
buat selama-lamanya,
masih tercari-cari
masih menantikan,
saat itu - cerah selama-lamanya.

at the every moment, i felt, relationship is just like the weather. there's always a sunny time, and rainy time. why is it not always sunny?

why?

when things already look so bad, and things are getting out of hands. i am alone, what can i do?
i still have to act strong, going through the heavy rain that blurred my vision just to prove people that they are wrong. i am supposed to live this life for myself and only myself.. but it seem like, life is all about satisfying people, pleasing them, trying to make yourself look good.

help.

argh

2009-03-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

just when things seem to be so anticipating..

.. and just when i thought some things are getting better..

...

...

i don't know.

it just somehow ended with a dis-opinion talk which i hated, due to a person and life.

life sucks, don't they? they just kept disappointing you.

doubt

2009-03-19T20:51:00.003+08:00

many a times, i will start to ask myself if i am in the right course, doing the right thing, will i be able to survive through it knowing the journey has the amount of unexpected and unseen torns i can see when i go mountain climbing. yes, i would say the path is much tougher than climbing the mountain.

besides handling the path, there will be other paths which suddenly or knowingly that emerges from the path, going to the right or left and here they come, joining from one to the other. now, everything is getting more complicated, more stress is put on the shoulder.

till, i felt, i couldn't breathe.

yes, you read that, and i am not kidding.

there were times, in fact more than once when i thought i should quit. i shouldn't continue making my path more difficult. do only what i can, and not what i want. how naive i can be before this? thinking that if i want something, there must be a way to achieve it, although it seem almost impossible because i might not have the capability.

it became worse, when i know of things i hated to know about. it pulled me down, real down, almost into the well where no one can ever get to save me. this is negative, everything was negative. i tried to find my way out from the maze, which almost suffocate me, unfortunately i think i am still in it.

how long will i survive the maze? i wonder. why am i doing this? i could just give up, and the maze will solve itself and let me out. why am i still holding on? can i make it?

no, i don't think i am emotional. but somehow, things just look bad.

*****
to you know who you are, i am really proud of you! you have walked out from the darkness of the relationship that you were once in. and as told, i am loving you at 200%! and forever more. you were right, behind every POPULAR girl, there is a BEST GUY FRIEND. :) and you should know that, i am there for you, a phone call or a text away too.

happy and still happy that you made it!

12/2

2009-02-12T20:34:00.001+08:00

cornettos.

sushi.

surprises!

must be you. no one else. :)

THANKSSS bf!! :)

dreams

2009-02-09T12:41:00.003+08:00

i am free at the moment, but busy at other times.

i want more than 24 hours a day!

i want less work.

i want less stress!

i want more fun!

YES YES YES!!! :D

i WANT to buy an island and live happily ever after there.

oh no.

2009-02-01T10:50:00.003+08:00

this new year had been real real normal, of course other than getting those red packets.

why??

is it because as you grow older you will feel like this?

when you are loaded with upcoming stress then it becomes like this?

i really don't know.

i have one more day off and oh no, it starts. the going uphill filled with rocks and and yet muddy road.

i still have lots of unfinished work. why am i procrastinating??

urgh!

CNY '09

2009-01-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese 'Niu' Year to all!

May this ox year bring the ultimate happiness, ultimate good health, ultimate good luck and everything ultimately positive to all!

Moo~

bedtime story

2009-01-17T15:18:00.002+08:00

my boyfriend, my hero. :)

i seriously stayed for another 39 hours again! not my fault having insomnia, alright? sighs.
you know how i eventually got into sleep after that?

...

...

...

the boyfriend called and told me a bedtime story! :)
*moses number 1*

yes, and soon, after saying goodbye on the phone, i slept! <3

39 hours.

2009-01-13T11:24:00.005+08:00

i almost outwake a houseman! :( just, almost!

i was awake for 39 hours yesterday. i just couldn't sleep, and not like i don't want to sleep. see the way my pimples stayed for months and still popping even more, and you will know the importance of sleeping my fellow friends! you know how i got to sleep at the end of the day? drink! drink the cough medicine! yes, that was what i did! ):

holiday is seriously holiday. i have done nothing, achieved nothing! all the plans i had before holidays are kind of put on hold just because i kept procrastinating! LOL! i AM a bad girl.

yeaps, MJiun will be back in 2 days time! (: (:

my early '09.

2009-01-09T16:19:00.003+08:00

what have i achieved since the brand new year?

1. i patiently waited and suffered the 'miss you' syndrome because my boyfriend had exam on 2nd and 3rd!
2. i went shopping on the 1st, 2nd and 3rd of January.
3. i went for a small hike and a waterfall expedition in Kuala Kubu Bharu on the 4th! :)
Its A-W-E-S-O-M-E! i cannot wait to go again!
4. i stayed at home on the 5th.
5. i went out with the boyfriend to One Utama for 2 movies! So, yeah my first 2 movies of the year that i have watched is 'Ip Man' and 'The Spirit'.
6. i went to Sweet Bean Cafe with my college mates, namely: Kevin, E Li, Kai Jia, Pei Li, Ning Ning, Wei Keat, Guan Teck, Yi Jet and Carr Men to celebrate my birthday on the 7th of Jan.
7. then, that on the 7th night, i went out with Yen Yee and Kelsey to AEON, Lavendar and then mamak till 12 plus, just because they want to be the first to wish me!
8. went back to high school on my birthday morning just for.. fun! :)
9. went to the beach and had Kajang satay with the boyfriend in the late afternoon.
10. its the 9th today, and i think i should go to sleep again, soon! *its 430pm now*

More to look forward to!

2009 (:

2009-01-01T11:55:00.006+08:00

First of all, HAPPY FANTASTIC NEW YEAR to everyone! (:
May this year 2009 bring everyone lots of joy, happiness, great health and success!

Secondly, I was thinking if I should change my blog layout, because its a new year? But, I like the colour, the butterflies, and everything about the current layout. So, maybe not.

Thirdly, I would love to thank my fellow friends; primary, high school, college and uni friends for being such a great company throughout my year 2008 and clearly, you guys have made a difference in my life and more meaningful by leaving memorable footsteps. May this cow year bring us more exciting and memorable events for us to treasure as we go on! (:

p/s: If you love bedtime stories, I think you should go and watch 'Bedtime Stories' which is in cinema now!

'You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.'

friendship?

2008-12-28T07:38:00.006+08:00

"I guess when certain things are said, we cannot take it back.

Also, when certain things are done, we cannot just ignore it and move on."

That's a friendship, I guess? Although people always say, 'forgive and forget'.

Some things in life, its easier said than done, I know that very well. Its not that I don't care about it, its just I don't know what I can do about it. I used to believe, if I don't need you in my life in order to keep me going, I don't mind losing you, because you are just a friend. Trust me, that would mean nothing, and I won't even bother to get upset. But, that is a belief I guess, because it didn't work; didn't work well although I have tried convincing myself.

Give me more time. I shall.. try my best to get you out of my sight, my everything, for the hurt that I once gotten, and left me a scar.

Life goes on, whether it is sweet or sour.

Its been 78 hours, and it felt like forever! Just, 2 more days to go.

*****

(Le Min, myself and Ying See)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ying See! :)

You are a great senior and a valuable friend. I will forever remember how you kept me going during my very first hike. You never left me alone, never complain, but always be there for me keeping me in your sight, making sure I am safe. You tried singing songs too, to make me less tired.
Thanks, for everything!

*hugs*. I hope you will have a great day, filled with joy and happiness!

27/12

2008-12-27T04:41:00.003+08:00

Uh..

Its my hottest mummy and handsome daddy's 1 year anniversary.

:)

Yeah, it still make no sense that both of them are younger than me, daddy by a mere few days which makes him happy, and mummy by a year? :(

I love the both of you!

*****

On the other hand, I was feeling so heart pain, as in, yes, the last time I felt this was like 10 days ago? Sighs. For me, its still health first, then everything else.

p/s: get the hint now?

No, I am not complaining that life have not been good and etc etc; the truth is, life has been too great! :) I know exams are near and its so weird to say life is great at this moment. Hah~ I just had to because I feel so, kays?

ALL THE BEST to everyone I know that is going to sit for exam in a few more days!

xmas '08

2008-12-25T12:11:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS, peeps!

I know some people are having holidays, and some are busy studying for exams. Oh well, no matter what, I hope all of you will have a memorable Christmas!
ALL THE BEST!

:)

joyce teh

2008-12-23T05:58:00.001+08:00

Dearest, JOYCE TEH!

HAPPY 19th!

And it has been such a wonderful 11 years of friendship with someone like you, so happy-go-lucky and would laugh so hard with me! Oh, there were the silly watching drama days and cry together too! :)
I know you will have a great day, with or without me. I will compensate, arite? xoxo.

2s'

2008-12-23T01:15:00.005+08:00

This is my 120th post. :)

Its the 22nd of December that I shall remember.

How things can be associated with 2.

:)

tertanya

2008-12-16T11:59:00.005+08:00

cuaca yang tersenyum,

hati yang terlindung,

seperti matahari yang tidak kelihatan,

apakah hari ini akan seperti esok?

berkekalan?

kuberusaha mencari sumber haba,

gagal,

kuberusaha mencari sumber angin,

bagi meniup perasaan ke arah lain,

hilang dari pandangan,

gagal,

apakah esok akan seperti hari ini?

daun masih hijau,

langit masih biru,

segalanya masih kekal,

tertanya.

IMU Infinity Milers

2008-12-13T12:52:00.001+08:00

emotional

2008-12-13T12:21:00.003+08:00

That was what attracted most of us.
That was what they first shown us.
That was how, at the end of the day, we signed up.
And, that was how, the bonding and unity came about.

I cannot say in word or describe my feelings right now. I went into Miler's blog, saw Justin's latest post about last training session on the 17th, then I don't know why, I scrolled down and saw that video. Excitedly, I loaded it, and watched it. At the moment they started singing the Miler's song, my heart felt it. I remember how I felt when I first saw it, I remember when I first sang that song, what Ray Mun told me about that song and how things is going to change after this. Emotionally, I teared silently, it just kept flowing and I kept wiping it away. I tried very hard to be a strong girl, knowing, its not the end but another beginning of everything, but my heart just resisted what I was thinking. I am not that strong girl everyone thought I am, and I am sorry for disappointing you people.

I too, cannot imagine how my last training session with the current committee will be like. I have thought of not attending the training, because if I don't, then I will not ever have the 'last training'. Or, I was thinking of just going through the running and all, but not attending the de-briefing session, as it will obviously be one of the most emotional sessions that I can see. I know, deep down my heart, all this won't work, I will go, for the last training session with them, savouring every moment using all the 5 senses we were exposed to. I will forever, remember it, everything about it.

What does a dark sky tell you?
For me, it signifies heaviness of the cloud. It had to let go the heaviness because it no longer can withstand the weight. Thus, raining soon will take place.

What does a heavy heart tells you, when you are sad?
For me, it tells me, its time to cry. Let it go.

From this and after a conversation with uncle, I learnt to never bond with the patients in future, as in, never have a strong bond but have empathy for them. Or, I will definitely feel how I felt at this very moment, crying for over 30 minutes. I just have to be a little more selfless, pass the way I feel, what I have gone through and how I went through experience to my juniors next time.

For now, I have another assignment for the bigger picture. Bye!

2 more, and that's it. :(

2008-12-08T10:45:00.001+08:00

Just when we all got closer,
Just when its already towards the end of the year,
Just when its all about to end,
and we are left we 2 more exciting and looking-forward-to trainings,
Just when everytime I think about it,
It'll somehow make me stop and stare at the clock,
Hoping it would stop at that moment,
For every great things that are happening currently to stay,
and for every single disappointing events that happened to be washed away.

This is when, we are all becoming a whole big happy cool family.

To Infinity and Beyond! :)

Mizuno Wave Run, 2008.

5th Dec

2008-12-06T09:35:00.003+08:00

It was 5th December, and I know its near, very near already. Try counting down and you will know. I shall move to find my second home and make it my second home.

I have never done that, but wonderfully at the end of the day, I enjoyed, and I am satisfied with what I brought home with me last night. It was a long day, staying awake from 5am to 12am was something I haven't tried before this. But, the time tick-tock-tick-tock, just flew by. :( Oh, and its also today that I had dinner at William's, a place where its like a mamak but with all kinds of food (you name it, and you get it concept) and its crowded, most importantly, the food is delicious! :)

Oh gosh, when I thought I had quite a good day and was hoping it will end with a smile just before I sleep, it turned out to be a emo one. I accidentally deleted ALL my inbox messages! :( :( For those who know me well, you know how sad I can be if that happens, and duh, for circumstances like, need to reformat phone which leave me with no choice only will make me let go messages. Urgh, that's how stupid I can be. Arrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhh....

I shall try to get over it. Gawd, I still feel the lost.

:)

2008-12-01T21:00:00.007+08:00

Once, my new-found uncle to be, given the all kinds of nickname by me, now ended up calling him uncle told me, if there's something he has learnt throughout the last year or so, is that we really got to balance things out. Show our parents that we are willing to work hard in studies and in training, and we shall have blessings for everything that we want to do.

I still remember once when I was feeling bitter about myself, neglecting certain things in my life. Knowing, there is no way I can keep things like how I want it to be, no matter how much I try, I will still have to give up something. I cannot have everything that I want, no?

I guess; everyday, every minute, as I am getting older, I am missing something, something I cannot tell what it is. I learn to appreciate the chances I have, do what I want most and being more positive about life.

Sometimes, having more cells that are curious to know things in me brought things around me looking more interesting. This made me became Bella too, and I found 'my' Edward. 'my' Edward's look is of course not like the Robert Pattinson larh, but I am not a superficial person, so, yeaps, its okay. This is a top secret. :) Its so good that, I can sort of 'read' him, but *evil grins*, he cannot 'read' me.

For now, I gotta go because I am the uncle's niece now, and more responsibility to hold.

Byes!

And, I got a super sweet and thoughtful small gift called the 'Ralph Lauren Black Patrick' today from Edward. Thanks! :) :)

Everyone made my day! 1/12/08

every little you do

2008-11-30T09:25:00.005+08:00

Yesterday Mei Jiun came online and asked me to tell her that I do love her. Gosh, I was shocked because she has never never said that before. Soon, I came to know why! :) :)

p/s: I still cannot stop smiling whenever I thought of what you did for me, darling!

Although, I am not going to say what you did for me exactly right here and now, but I just want to let everyone else that reads my blog to know, how love can bring things about. Basically, I wanted a soft toy, that I find it very very hard to get in Malaysia, seriously. So, I told her how much I wanted the toy, and straight she told me, she would go to the arcade and win it for me. Yes, you hear that, win the toy for me! Being her manja princess, I guess that is one of the ways she pamper me. Hee!

Last Thursday, she called me in the morning and told me, its not easy to find the toy as well and arcade may not have it. I was sad, but you know what, all that matters is that she actually remember me everywhere she goes and knows what I want. :) So, soon, I got over it and maybe I am just not fated to find that toy, because she got me something else that was about the toy as well, the day before that. I guess this is how, a best friend can always win her best friend's heart. She always did win my heart, and me, knowing, nothing can replace her, or find another her.

Yesterday was a long but fun day for her I guess. I know she was extremely excited when she finally got the toy for me! She told me, she never get to win anything before this, when she plays at the arcade. However, she won that lovely toy I wanted so much yesterday. I told her, this shows how much her love for me can bring things about. Seriously, we agreed. What bonded both of us together is our differences, we don't really have much things in common; but I always hold on to my philosophy: opposite attracts. And, believe me, this philosophy has been a decade. :)

Best friend, I really really do love you and appreciate every little thing you do for me. Every little things count, I remember you were once upset because you knew, you disappointed me. But soon, you learnt, I wasn't mad at you for what you have did, but because I cannot afford to see you get hurt by anything, I was disappointed.

All I want to say is that, I am always there for you, like how you are always there for me, for my everything from happy news to bad news to exciting news, funny stories and embarrassing ones too! :)

Here's part of my favourite lyric from 'Every little thing you do' by Westlife, just for you:

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

Yeaps, I love you!

surprises.

2008-11-28T21:28:00.003+08:00

I went ahead with the chance.

I don't know what was the outcome or consequences, but I am perfectly positive that I made the right choice.

At least, I had it once, right?

:)

It was a good Friday, indeed. No, not very happening, just busy.

And, I think I start to love small small surprises already, compared to last time where I hated surprises of any kind. Heh! Of course, only surprises with good and sweet intentions, not to scare or freak people out! :)

taking the chance

2008-11-25T14:54:00.002+08:00

Since things are getting more emotional every Wednesday, I learn to treasure every second I have in the evening. Not that I take things for granted every Wednesday before this, its just, I was more likely taking it less emotional, or never emotional until last week when I felt I should, starting this week. So, yeaps, its tomorrow. An evening to treasure, value and appreciate.

Last week was good, road relay. :)

This week is something new for me to look forward to. Yes yes! :) :)

And, guess after much advises and persuades from my fellow trustworthy friends, I will take the chance again this time. She was right, I won't want to look back one day and ask myself, why didn't I take the chance when I had; what if I have taken it? So, when I was really really struggling to know what my heart and mind wants, I decided that it is even better if I were to know the outcome after taking the chance.

I know, chances like this don't happen everyday.

So, yes, I shall not think about it anymore, and take it!

Wish me luck.

Oh, Twilight is coming out in the cinemas this Thursday, people!
27th November!

sighs.

2008-11-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

How true can the idiom be? The one that says 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'?

Oh well, I personally think that, the idiom is true in certain situations. The distance between my best friend, MJiun and I is around 4108 miles and seriously, it makes our friendship bond stronger each and everyday. Every time when she comes back which is once in a year, we will hang out a lot to talk about the things we went through without each other while watching dvd then spending time to reminisce the times we had for a decade.

Yet, there's this saying 'so near yet so far'.

I think after today, I kind of got the meaning too. I felt it. Not because I am nervous or stress or anticipating to the events this week, I am just.. feeling.. helpless about something. I would have ran to MJiun if she's here, with me. I know, she's always a call away, but its just different. I wanted her comfort. She is my comfort zone.

I am a weird person, or you can call me, don't know how to appreciate things girl. No, not that I don't appreciate what people do for me, I meant.. I don't know how to appreciate chances that I get. And, this happened not only once, but always. Then, I will get myself into dilemma and having the 'heavy-heart' feeling and eventually my cheeks will be wet. I don't understand myself, before getting permission for something that I want to do badly, I will go all out to get that permission. But after getting it, I will start to think whether I should or I shouldn't.

I hate myself for being such a full of doubt girl. I hate regretting!

you.

2008-11-22T10:12:00.002+08:00

When I am weak, I thought of you.
When I was in my semi-conscious mind, I dreamt of you.
When I have doubts, I go to you.
When I needed someone to hold on to, I wanted very much to hold on to you.

I guess, its just you that I hope to rely on.

Its just so coincidental, that this song, came into my mind. 'My Love, by Westlife.'
Ah, suits the whole scene now.

its just so.

2008-11-18T19:05:00.004+08:00

Have you ever wondered, why we are easier to be mentally tired than physical? Well, you may not exactly have to agree with me, but I have been thinking about it but I just don't know why. So, yes I wonder if you guys think like me.

I guess, at the end of the day, I am still the soft hearted one.

I think, I miss the old Britney Spears songs and video clips. I just watched them from you tube. Her first album was sweet, lovely and awesome. :) I love 'born to make you happy', 'sometimes' and 'from the bottom of my broken heart' video clips. They are good.

Sorry, I know this is random.

Did I mention in any way, that it is easy to piss me off nowadays? Yes, I am telling you please do not piss me off or irritate me unnecessarily. Thanks.

aiks. end - hurray!

2008-11-15T08:46:00.005+08:00

For me, yesterday was a don't know-why-day. I did a lot of things without a reason, for example, going to uni, was seriously a waste of petrol, sleeping hours and time. But, yeah we still went. The lecture was so empty! :(

The feeling of missing someone is bad, especially if that someone is very dear to your heart. Out of no where, I miss MJ so much that I could tear at that moment because my heart felt so empty yet heavy. But I chose to text her instead of crying, so yea. I miss you, Jiun! The negative thing is that she's only coming back after 1 week and 1 day after my birthday, and that we will only have 1 day time to spend together after so long because she's leaving for HK with family for a short holiday after that. Duggit duggit!

Now, I wish I am not going to stay in Vista because.. I want to spend my night time with her, everyday! till she goes back to Aussie. :(

Well, she was then busy hosting meeting with her ADND committee, and me being the too free one, typed out all my hiking days stuffs to her so that she could read after her online meeting, every single detail that I could remember. Now, we have a 'pocket secret' that is too sweet to be revealed. You see, others might just think its nothing, but for me and me, I will remember it for life and definitely things surround me will trigger me to think about the 'pocket secret'. I miss it. How wonderful can 1 touch be, sometimes? Hah~

At the peak, with 10 degrees celcius, the stars still look so pretty! Thank goodness I didn't miss it. Good times, good times.

Lol. I am officially engaged to MJ via facebook. long story, don't bother asking why we came to this conclusion of making it known to people. This is a long distance which will survive! :)

Survived

2008-11-13T21:39:00.003+08:00

Heys! This is just a short update.

In case some people is wondering whether See Wei survived the hiking and came home safely, the answer is a YES!

The 35 of us are very very satisfied and happy and safe and positive! :)

We went through it!

I will update more pictures in the next post. Tah-z!

My hiking group, called the 'Leech Lovers' and 2 guides. :)

p/s: I start to miss them already and the hardships, really. YUM YUM YUM!

the upcoming hike : 7-10 Nov

2008-11-02T10:12:00.004+08:00

Hello, welcome back! :)

Seriously seriously, if I have a lot of time doing nothing nowadays, I would rather sleep or facebook, than updating my poor bloggie. I guess this will be my once in a week post because I only visit my blog to link to some other blogs everyday, and not posting something here. So, please bear with me. I am sorry that there are no pictures in my blog again, erm, I don't know why.

I guess a bunch of us are excited that this week is finally here! And that Friday is approaching real soon. Ok, why Friday?

Because.....

Its our first major hike to Gunung Batu Puteh in Tapah, Perak. More like it is situated at the border of Perak and Pahang. So, yeah, whatever. Take note that this mountain is 2131 meters. Imagine, it is almost 5 times the KL Tower height? KL Tower is basically 421 meters. So, yes, yours truly is trying out something really really interesting, new and challenging (very challenging actually). :)

I have no idea what to imagine right now for and about the hike. I guess I will do what Roderick said: Empty your cup of coffee and start filling the cup again. Throw away all your thoughts, experience it yourself. Fill the cup as you go on.

Its not cheap to go for a hike. You see, people like me, the first timer will need a lot of new things. Such as, headtorch which costs me RM35.90, a water proof jacket, a hiking bag (I want to invest in one but mummy said no), hiking shoe which won't cost me more than RM100, and lots more. NO! This is definitely not a complain, lol, its just, sharing my first time hiking expenses with you guys. :)

Why am I so into running and climbing mountain or hills nowadays? Hmm.. I don't really have a reason to that question. For one, I know running keeps myself more persevere, because I just cannot run halfway and quit. Same goes to climbing, I cannot reach the peak and said, 'I don't want to do this anymore' or 'argh, I will just roll down, save time'. It helps in building a whole new personality and attitude that are way more positive and enriches our life experiences. Not everyone goes climbing, I bet. If I didn't choose to join Infinity Milers, I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't have experienced any mountain climbing nor running once in a week. Another plus point is that, I got to know a bunch of super cool and helpful people in the club. :)

Since I am going for the climb, I have something to update in collaboration with the hike. My calendar says:
November is the month of TEAMWORK - teamwork is a collective efforts of individuals working on towards a common goal, sharing mutual success.

Again, the 'TEAMWORK' and its explanation is meant for all of us. The common goal will be reaching every peak safe and sound and touching down the ground on 10th Nov happy and satisfy. The success is that, we made it and all the hard work will be paid off. :)

p/s: I pray I won't be eaten and also a minimum amount of leeches please! Lol! I shall update about 'the list' after the hike!

Tah-tah people. Take care!

Deepavali

2008-10-26T11:05:00.002+08:00

Oh, HWAPPIIE DEEPAVALI, pals! :) :)

:) Have a great great light festival and yes, may the light bring more sunshine and success into everyone's life!

Hugs.

Night hike (24-10-08)

2008-10-25T13:23:00.005+08:00

Hello bello and ello! :)

As I mentioned earlier, I went hiking on Friday night. Oh firstly, thank goodness it didn't rain when we were hiking! Thank God! :) :)

We started hiking around 830pm I guess after waiting for another 2 cars that got lost and a little inspirational talk by Roderick and a little 'think out of the box' game. Yes, it was dark by then. And the trail was super muddy and thus, slippery. At certain track, you can even feel your feet going into the muddy soil. Lol! Then, walked across super small river, or maybe its not even called a river, just water flowing through place, thus making our shoes wet and hmm.. soggy? Its not so bad actually, cause the weather was good. The funny thing was that whenever I hold on to any of the tree branches, the water droplets on the leaves will be shook then drop on us, making Jeannie screamed once because she thought it was drizzling! Ahaks ahaks! :)

Nevertheless, its again my another experience hiking at night. More to come, more to come! Although we got lost for a while, but at last we found the way back to the exit again at 11pm plus. Then headed to Steven's Corner to eat dinner around 12am. Uh-huh, our life don't sound that stress and hectic after all, right? Ho-ho. Reached home at 1am plus near to 2am.

p/s: I personally think Justin's diagnose is right. Sighs.

I need to stay in Vista, yeah.

Have a great weekend and a free splendid holiday on Monday! :D

Owh, according to my calendar, the October month is the month of perseverance. :) Fits me and milers perfectly. With a little elaboration, its written: just over the mountain is a beautiful valley, but you must climb the mountain to see it. :)

Cheers!

Milers. :)

2008-10-23T18:00:00.003+08:00

Infinity Milers, the most caring club you can ever have, planned a pre-pre summative for us. :) So cool right, thus, making some of us stress and then study, trying to memorize the notes, or even swallowing them! But come to think about it again, I start to love the way we were asked to study (in a way, do revision) and then, being a running and mountain climbing club, we were needed to perform some fit exercise to answer their questions.

The plan obviously came from the Mr. Hyper (Justin), which was also my orientation's treasure hunt's planner and so, we went through the similar routes again, from one station to another to answer what ever questions they asked yesterday. As far as I can remember, there were 5 stations yesterday. My first station was the Wei Sheng and Le Min station, next was Roderick and Xin Ying, then Mr.Pres (Ray Mun), and then, all the way to Whei Ying and Jeannie's station and lastly, the Mr.Hyper and Ying See's station. :) Running up and down but more to walking and slow jog, making decisions whether to do burpies, star-jump, push-ups or sit-ups. Lol!

The happiest thing was that, I have had another experience I have never had! It was....

raining!

Yes, we did all that under the rain. :) date: 22.10.08

The next thing I want to do is urhm.. dance slow dance under the rain. :) *shhhh...*

*****

Tomorrow is Friday! Our Bukit Gasing hiking day! :) Night hike. I suppose its going to be fun because partly, I get to see more stars, and get nearer to them? Yay-ness! Imagine, you carrying 4 bottles of 1.5 litres of water up tomorrow. Yes, that is what we are required to do because we are preparing ourselves for a 4 days 3 nights hike. Ho-ho.

Please please DO NOT rain! Please please.. *prays hard*

I know its going to be fun under the rain again, but I don't want my shoes to get dirty, wet and muddy again. Ahaks, I know this is contradicting. :/

Seriously, every week walk past me so quickly that before I even realise, its again the weekend. :( Slow down, slow down!

Till then, bye folks, and I shall come back soon to elaborate on my night hike! :D Have a fantastic weekend, alright?

19-10-08 ( Good day)

2008-10-19T17:09:00.007+08:00

Hey folks! This is my 100th post! :) :)

And I have achieved something today!

*drums roll*

*still rolling*

*stops*

Its just another ordinary Sunday for some of you out there, but for the 57 of us, from IMU, today is definitely another eventful day. Yes! We participated in the Mizuno Wave Run (10km). Why is it called wave? Erm, basically its because there were up hill and down hill, thus sounding like a wave? So, yes, I was told that this wave run is one of the most difficult runs in Malaysia! :)

And... I made it! We made it! :)

Despite the dilemma I was going through the whole day yesterday, I am glad that I at last chose to run. Oh, the reason I wasn't supposed to run was because of my in the healing process ankle. Hey hey, I do love my legs alright? Its just, I had to make it to my target. I am happy to be the less than 400 people in girls category to reach the end point. *I didn't get to look at the number I got, cause I felt like fainting.* Lol! I saw a 3** only. :(

But, whatever, I've got another finisher medal, yo! :) :)

I heard, only top 500 from woman category will get it, so yes, I am happy! All in all, 1300 medals will be given out. Despite the never-get-to beat my self timing this time, due to some unwanted accidents, I am happy that I completed it actually. 1 hour 20 mins was my target, but I completed it in I guess, 1 hour 25 mins? :(

There's always a next time. Heee..

I guess that's all for now. Oh, I love you guys for being such a great supporter. :) Especially Jeannie who waited for me at the first aid too. Love love!!

p/s: I am still the old See Wei you people know, its just, running and hiking really really are my interests now. The undying interests still remain, of course like loving the sky, loving the stars, the beach and watching movies with friends? :) Oh, this includes my contagious laugh!

I want to be the small girl, always. Can can?

shaky

2008-10-18T13:26:00.005+08:00

I sincerely do hope that I will make myself promise not to run tomorrow.

But, deep down my little fragile heart..

Do you know how hard is it to make such a promise?

At the end of the day, I might not even promise myself anymore.

I have faith, I am going to make it.

I know, there is always another time to run, another time to make the dream come true.

Maybe its just me, the rebellious and stubborn me, where no one can STOP me from doing things I want to do. NEVER!

He, the concern Mr.Pres talked to me yesterday, gave me an analogy by saying about himself, what worries him and all those 'what if' this and that happens? At the point where we were talking, I almost teared, but it will be too embarrassing, thus I held strongly to my lacrimal gland, not releasing it. I didn't know how he can read my mind, because it was the same exact thing I was thinking every night, asking myself. I didn't voice it out, or ask anyone about it, because I know, no one understands it; at the end, I might look like some paranoid kid. No I am not! I don't want to be a burden to myself, what more my team? I will do whats best for the team.

I am really really torn apart. Trust me, its been a long time since I last felt it the way I am now.
Hopeless.

Li Teng told me, at least I had the bravery to sign up for both pacers when I am just a beginner. I know, even myself could not believe it, until last Sunday when I seriously completed the Klang pacer of 12km- my first ever run other than the school merentas desa! It wasn't at all easy, with my ankle injury and no first aids around and only one water stop. :( But I made it back in 1 hr 35 mins! I broke my own set-timing, which I am very happy. I got the finishing medal, I am happy.

What about tomorrow?
We will see, because the decision I made yesterday seem shaky.

Dear friends who are running for Mizuno tomorrow, I know we can all make it! :)

Stress

2008-10-11T10:59:00.006+08:00

I felt the butterflies in my stomach ever since I woke up.

I guess it will never go off till tomorrow ends.

I hope I can finish it fairly well and not disappoint myself; I shall set the target and achieved it no matter what.

I have only done it once, and this is second. This is further (much further) and tougher.

Optimism helps? Sighs.
Being much a neurotic girl early in the morning doesn't help; as it only adds stress and more pimples on my chubby face. :( And I am now more prone to heart diseases and *coughs* cancer.

All the best to all my fellow friends who are running 12km tomorrow! :)

To Infinity and Beyond, yo! =)

Its been a real tiring week with lots of things to digest, absorbed then lastly kept in the blood forever and ever. I have pretty much adapted to the life already, its just getting used to it now and the next few years. I have been having lots of mood swings lately too, I just don't know why. But people who know me should know that I don't take long to be myself back, the bubbly one you see almost everyday unless I am pissed or angry in university. Be assured that I will still put on a smile even if I am unhappy alright? =)

Its just so natural.

***** (editted)

p/s: I am so sad, so stress and so emotional that I start to eat every 2 hours again! Sobs. Would someone just kill me? :(

HAPPY 19th to Miss Leong E Li!

pissed. rumours?

2008-10-05T19:28:00.003+08:00

just tell me

how much do you know me?

DON'T just talk because you want to!

DON'T just say something just because you think its true!

Urgh. I am amazingly very pissed.

03-10-08

2008-10-04T10:37:00.013+08:00

Big broad smile for what I did yesterday. :)

I went out with Yen Xi, Kevin and Guan Teck. :) Oh well, it was Kevin's birthday a day before yesterday and Yen Xi's birthday coming soon. I am such a manipulator, yes I am! :p So, of course we celebrated their birthday very very low profile-ly. After fetching darling YenXi, we bought the movie ticket. And, oh, PLEASE do watch Mama Mia! The show is way too interesting and sweet and lovable and.. *everything positive*. Then, headed to Parkson with the hope to get nice formal shirts for the cockroach, but he's way too choosy. Ended up buying n-o-t-h-i-n-g. :(

But, I got to take a picture of this cute girl, helping Kevin to carry the bear which we bought for him on his birthday.

Then, we just walk around aimless-ly.

My closest friend in uni. :)

The October babies- Libra!
Both my closest friend in uni that will pamper me.

Hon Meng Daddy ar, I was so excited to take this picture to show you! Its snoopy, yo!

A delicious and yummy cake from Delicious.

The buddies. Kevin calls himself Batman, and so, Guan Teck is his Robin?

<3

Have you seen the daddy-side of Kevin?

Awwww! He'll definitely be a wonderful daddy.

And, this girl will definitely be a excellent mummy!

At the end of the day...

Kevin and Kevin Junior.
That name was given to his 19th birthday present. Cute?
Now, Kevin, you have a bear and thus, my Swensens is safe!

The happy 4!

Go watch Mama Mia! :)

Did I mention, Twilight movie will be out in Malaysia on the 27th Nov?!!! *jumps around happily* :)

'the winner takes it all, the loser has to fall.'

Birthdaysss ;)

2008-10-02T16:40:00.006+08:00

Hello folks! I hope everyone is enjoying their one week break. :) Coughs, other than friends in UK or Singapore which are not having a break, because my darling in Aus is having her one week break as well!

This post is mainly for me to wish:

Kevin Kwan Joo Ern, my darling cockroach

Hwapppyyy Bwafdayyyy!
:)

Like what I said, I will still pamper you when you want me to, although you are a year older now. Lol!

*dance around happily because the birthday boy owes me 3 ice creams, which I am now smarter for asking him to get all 3 ice creams from different places like ahem, Baskin Robbin and all. Lol lol. And, we are going out for more shirts tomorrow, and MamaMia!*

Now, you will surely remember my favourite birthday cake flavour, dong dong! :p

***

Ho Ken Sing

Happy 20th too! (:

Can Sing, but Can-not Blow. Last year, in TGIF. rofl.

***
sending 2 warm hugs to birthday boys......
sent.
received?

***

1. Have you ever tried swimming when the temperature is 18.5 Celcius with a cold breeze blowing

2. Have you ever fallen in love with many many colourful flowers, which will make you feel like investing some money from your allowance every month, so that your mummy will buy more flowers and you can start gardening as well?

3. Have you ever tried being lame and your friends eventually gets lame too?

4. Do you have a childhood sweetheart?

I do, I have and

I am happyyyy!!! :D

1, 2, 3, 4, tell me that you love me more!

Kevin

2008-09-30T15:17:00.004+08:00

The adorable side of Kevin was revealed last Friday when I purposely brought my lovely bear, Swensens to uni. Yes, to uni. Hahaha! Swensens was all the way sitting on Kevin's lap when he was driving me to uni. Kevin loves Swensens so much that he wants a bear on his 19th birthday too or he'll steal my Swensens! =) Eh no, this birthday tip is for me only okie! You people buy him something else! Bluek. He even told some people in uni that the bear belongs to him!

Kevin Kwan, tsk tsk. Here's a picture of him and little mischievous Swensens of mine.

Won't you love Kevin for being extremely childish and lovable? I will.
See him with soft toys then, or maybe just my Swensens. Heh~

Justin showed me 2 articles today. One made me laughed a lot, and another made me a little stressed and anxious. Urgh. Whats life in a few years time? *wonders*

I miss the times I had in Redang! I really do. I want to go there again, with some fun people again. Memories is such a great gadget that drives me missing it. Its all your fault, going with your friends without bringing me, you camel! =( *digs into Redang pictures again*

Celebrations!

2008-09-28T16:24:00.010+08:00

Its been a real hectic week. No, I don't know why time seem to pass so fast and what awaits me every single day.

Like what Wen Peng said before Milers training that day:
'You know arh, this is what we all look forward to go for every week?' Yes, indeed, the Milers' training. I know, its running, and only running. But somehow, running a few kilometers seem to get my attention already. Although I have to admit that there are times I felt like sleeping more than running before training starts. But yeah, you know, we stay back for many many hours before training starts? Lol.

I still love running. :) Oh, I love the new park that we were brought to the other day, which was 3kilometers away from IMU. In total, you get to run around 8kilometers if you are in certain group, depending on who lead. I don't care how many kms I ran, all I know is that I have to train because I want to run for both the pacers that I have registered. Uh-huh, the smart me, sprained the ankle tendon and now it hurts whenever I walk. What more run? :(

Then, on Thursday, we celebrated Wen Peng and Devan's birthday! Yeah, both turning 19 only, so still can celebrate happily la of course. According to Dr.Galy, after 20, we shouldn't celebrate birthday anymore because that would mean celebrating us getting nearer to the grave. -.- Okie, whatever. Here's some pictures:

The cake from library cafe before it got smashed. :)

First stop, Wen Peng. A new way of smashing cake on someone.

2nd stop, Devan!

The beautiful cake that turned into, erm, no comment.

We still eat them, somehow!

The us!
Back from left: Kien Jeen, Khee Lung and Lawrence.
Middle row: Me, Yuan Liang, Michelle, Steph and Suki
Front: The 2 birthday boys- Wen Peng and Devan.

*****

Then, on Friday, we celebrated Kevin's birthday. Yes, its a little way too early, but we had to, because some of us cannot make it on his real big day! We ( E Li, Pei Li, Kai Jia, Carr Men, Guan Teck, Kevin and I) went to Secret Recipe in Sri Petaling after 3pm.

Kevin, with his natural smile that attracts many many *coughs*girls*coughs*and guys* :p

Its just him. Saliva all over the cake.

The us.
Back- Carr Men, Pei Li, Kevin, Guan Teck.
Front- Me, Kai Jia, E Li.

*****

Saturday and Sunday was a totally family weekend because we were all gathered in my cousin's house to help him out for his wedding and just hang around, talking and chatting. :)

I want to go prawn-ing! Fish-ing will do too! whatever.
p/s: Joyce Teh, lets go!
.

First hiking on 20/09/08.

2008-09-21T08:42:00.017+08:00

Good morning everyone!
My new record in sleeping straight for several hours is 15 hours! =) 15 hours! I have never imagined trying that, but I made it! Try it if you haven't. But, I don't think you will want to waste your time sleeping lah.

I went Klang Gates to hike with other Infinity Milers members! For your information, Klang Gate is NOT situated in Klang, ok? Its erm, 'somewhere over the rainbow' in Kuala Lumpur la, further than Zoo Negara and after a Bulatan Bukit Mas. It took us around 20 minutes from IMU to reach there.

Now, imagine you did not have a good night sleep because on Friday night because I went to cheer for my lovely family members whom were involved in cheerleading and it was also the night when IMU Cup officially ends! Then, after knowing who won for the cheerleading, it was already 12am. Then, Kevin, Guan Teck and I went to Adrian's house to shower before fetching Steph from Subang. After fetching Steph, it was already 1am. Sleep, sleep. Woke up at 3am because we should gather outside IMU at 4am according to Mr. President.

Then, on the highway early in the morning with 11 cars tailing Mr. President's car. You should see the awesome-ness! Its super cool where 12 cars move together ok! Then, reached there around 530am and we were divided into groups as usual. I have gotten Jeremy Joseph and Le Min as the leader. They rock! Then, climb climb climb! There were 6 peaks of hills that we went through before coming to the end down the hill. At the first peak, we waited to see the sunrise. Its super beautiful! According to Mr. President again, everytime he climbs, the scene of the sunrise is different and thus everytime is a different experience. This is my first time, I shall tell you all whether it is true to be different or not the next time I climb! =)

I didn't get to watch sunrise with you.

And, we celebrated Mr. Vice Pres's- Wei Sheng's birthday at the first peak. Happy Birthday, Wei Sheng! *i don't think he reads my blog anyway*

This is Wei Sheng.

Then we continued climbing all the 5 peaks. On the way of course being the real me, I fell on my knees once when climbing, then I even scratched my right hands on the rocks, and the funniest thing was I slipped on the way home. Its funny because Jun How reminded me NOT to slide at the place and right after he said 'DON'T slide', I slided and landed on my butt, which is very painful! =( My right ankle is also a little twsited, but all this pain is nothing because I had fun! I love fun and I shall climb again someday! =)

This is Justin.

Kevin Kwan!

Jun How, my batch rep- I owe him alot alot!

Thanks for keeping me safe throughout the climb and everything! Sorry for making your right side of body hurting because you had to hold my right hand using your right hand to walk all the way back and allowing me to accidently kick your precious sports shoe.
Seriously, THANKS ALOT!

Our group name: I want to pee! =) Always neutral, see 4 girls and 4 guys?

Justin hurt his hand. At least mine wasn't as bad as his!

Le Min, our senior! She's super cool and pro in climbing. =)

Ray Mun, the Mr. President whom I had to thank him for borrowing me his headtorch! Super bright headtorch which helped my friend front and back of me to see the track as well.

Esther. Me. Stephanie.

Wen Peng and I. He's my batch sports representative.

After climbing, we went to Steven Corner's to eat. =) I really did have fun.

A climb

2008-09-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

Me want to watch sunrise with you.
Me want to watch sunset with you.
Just you.
*coughs*

Nothing can make me take my eyes of you. The ironic thing is that, I don't know who's the who. I just felt like saying and typing.
r.a.n.d.o.m.

The mooncake party at Adrian's place on Monday night was super cool! A few of us stayed back in the library until 630pm after 1015am lecture! Imagine that lah, people! It was so tiring you know. Then, Yuan Liang came into the library and asked Hung Yew, Wen Peng and Ghi Waie to go for dinner now because Tien Meng and him got to go support Jolene at erm, 8pm for her 2.2km road relay!

Speaking about this, I regretted not going to support Jolene very berry much! Urgh~
Dinner time we had Hung Yew grandpapa, Yuan Liang daddy, Ghi Waie daddy, Tien Meng uncle, Wen Peng, Devan, Lawrence, Adrian and I.
p/s: Yes, I am the only girl. Lolz!

After eating, some of us was just too tired to move, so we went back to Adrian's place to wait for Yuan Liang daddy to come back with more people! We played the XBox at the mean time, erm, some car racing game. Of course I didn't even win a single race, I am not a game person lahh. But, wait, I practise! *grins*

Then, Yuan Liang daddy came around 9 and we continued playing the car racing game until 10 plus, when all of us decided to go yumcha at Halo Cafe, OUG. Drink, eat and talk till 12 plus. Michelle and Siew Kim was tagged along after their cheerleading and Jer Ming too! Then, the hyper Michelle and I want to play lantern very much, and so, we forced Jer Ming, Yuang Liang and Adrian to play at 12 plus, near 1am beside the Vista C swimming pool! =)
p/s: YL daddy, I truly hope you did well in PBL today. Lolz!

Infinity milers tomorrow!

3rd week

2008-09-14T10:28:00.004+08:00

I am very sorry for the lack of updates, and I guess most of us are busy.

First of all,

I still miss orientation moments!
I love hanging out at the library! For food and for the scenery from my favourite sitting place.
I still love hanging out with my seniors, cause they are funny and adorable!
I went for Infinity Milers' first welcoming party- they made us run! =)
I pricked my fingers twice to get blood!
I missed the Adventure Club's welcoming party because I forgot.
I sleep in the train everyday on my way home! Which I normally won't. =(
I got my own locker for the very first time.
I haven't got a chance to talk to my 'very enthusiastic' mentor!
I met up with Ken Hon on Friday for a movie- Wall E and did archery together, then arcade.

p/s: I know, I have to improve in alot of things before you come home next year! And, I will beat you! =p

I went for a charity home visit. We had fun!
Suppose to meet up with Eugene Chin, but we both cannot find time together! 2 more days only, and it will be next year! Dumbo curry mate!
Ask me out for jogging please??!! I loveee running!
I still love eating desserts!
I went for the mooncake and also BBQ party at Ca Men's house. =)
Zhern has got a new phone which is triple my phone price! Crap!
I didn't go clubbing on Friday night although I have transport home because I am tired and I have work to be completed for Sat. =( I am sorry, Yi Jet!

This is random:
I still would exchange something in order to have you in my life because I do love you alot as a friend.

A break

2008-09-07T11:30:00.003+08:00

Can I conveniently have at least a 2 weeks break? *desperate*

Because I want to fly to Sdyney for the deeply missed hug that I haven't gotten for 7 months?
I have found the type of hug I wanted, but I see no hope in it.
It was obviously like the one I once had from Michelle when I was in form 1, that warm! That made me hunt for it everytime I hug someone.
It made me want to hug that person more, but WTHarrr, I can't! =(
This is when I will start to get a little emotional again. =(

Many many questions in my mind. Urgh!

The real university life starts tomorrow. Get the hint that I will be dead soon?

Day 10, Day 11 and Day 12

2008-09-06T19:59:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not being able to update about myself. I haven't been so busy in my life for orientation I tell you. Or should I say this will be the one and only wonderful orientation I am going to have throughout my life? Yes, I REALLY REALLY did have fun, with the Malig9 people and also the Malig9 OOs'! I cannot express how much is my love for them, really. They treated us so well and sweet and be with us every single moment that they could spend with us; some even skipped a bit of their lectures. For the next few weeks, I need to be independent again because there wouldn't be anyone to pamper me like some of them already and the worst thing of all, I need to get use to not seeing the seniors everyday. I am sad! =(

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Day 10.

Nothing much happened on this day. I was suppose to overnight in Michelle's house helping her out with the props we needed for tomorrow- Variety Night. But. at the end of the day, I went back home at 830pm because I didn't bring enough clothes to survive until Saturday morning. Throughout the day, we went around hunting for signatures by the SRC (Student Representative Council) and also the orientation committees. Some may think that the signature hunt is a total waste of time, but I personally love it! Doing weird stuffs that the seniors wanted sometimes can make me laugh even when I am asleep.

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Day 11.

I did my PBL in the morning. Then, had my PBL class. And, after that was totally occupied with my Variety Night preparation already. Everyone says that this Variety Night is the most important night during the orientation. Our theme for the whole group performance was 'game character in the 1960'. Ideas given by Kien Jeen was so cool and that made us won 1st place! We are the group champion for this batch for the Variety Night! Woohoo~ All the hard work by Michelle, designing the costumes for each character really paid off. I will soon update a picture of the characters to show you what she did for us and then you will go 'WOAH' for sure! =)
Not to forget other OOs like Yuan Liang, Suki, Li Yen, Tien Ming, Khee Lung, Hung Yew, Ghi Waie, Kien Jeen and Siew Kim which really contributed in everything as well! They are the best 'family' you can ever find in your uni! =p But, too bad, they belong to me and Malig9!
We were too lazy to watch other groups' performance, so Yuan Liang and I went and practise mass dance, followed by playing one round of pool and dart games. After everything ended, we went McD to have supper. I slept around 330-4am.

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Day 12.

Woke up at 645am. This is the day, the day I don't want it to come to fast but, crap, came faster than it was expected to be. =( Nothing much to be done for this event but to get ourselves masks. So, we (Yuan Liang, Tien Ming, Steph, Adrian, Lawrence, Devan, Jian, Li Hoong, Wen Peng and I) went Mid Valley to hunt for masks. The theme was Masquerade and our group 9 had to dress up only in white. Its the easiest colour to get clothes, of course. =) This was going to be the end of it. End of orientation. End of the sleepless nights or 3 hours of sleep a day. I don't mind if this continues and never end, but it shall remain as a dream. It was a emotional night for me, and I guess for everyone of us. We had super cool bonding with the OOs, okay? The minute where they asked us to present souvenirs to the seniors, we didn't have ours with us, we couldn't get what we wanted to get for them in MidV! =( When we didn't get anything for them, they got something for us! T.T My heart sank when Yuan Liang and Michelle gave us each a photoframe with a picture of us together on the Variety Night. I know, it was another sleepless night of them doing this photoframe for us! I felt so bad because we didn't do that for them. There goes my tears but it was dark and no one saw. Mass dance was cool, with Ghi Waie as my partner except for the part where he forgetten some steps. Lol. But, still, he's good! =) Then, went mamak at Ajimal with some of them.

This is the photoframe! =)

p/s: Thanks alot to Adrian for letting us overnight for the past 2 nights!

I need time, to get myself back, to get use to not seeing you guys. Dinner time will make me reminisce the times we had dinner together. Atrium will make me pause and look around. PBL rooms will be the place where I seek for the laughters and lame-ness. A lot more to go, but I shall stop before my heart goes weak again. It's going to be tough.

I loveeeeeeeeee every single one of the OOs! *hugs*

p/s: Michelle and I have so much in common! We both are going to be the dessert queen and make the people who sells dessert to be richer! =) Wait till I stay in hostel. Yay- can eat with her more often then. And, she's the best costume designer that you can ever find!

Thank you OOs for skipping lectures, cheerleading practise and every other thing for us and just to be there for us!

I haven't been dreaming when I sleep- abnormal.

Day 9

2008-09-02T22:12:00.004+08:00

I will never expect myself to be like you.
I envy you, but I will never want to be like you.

*****

Dress code was today. The theme for our group 9 was the Wizard of Oz. Yours truly is the Dorothy! Weird weird Dorothy that looks like a typical high school girl! Ugrh. And, I did abit rap-ping with the 'somewhere over the rainbow'. Then, had a false kiss scene with the tin man. I am so over it now, anyway.

First movie with a few of the OOs was Death Race, started at 10pm on the 1st of Sept. 8 of us went for the movie, mainly, Yuan Liang, Ghi Waie, Hung Yew, Steph, Devan, Jian, Lawrence and myself.

I am tired. I am pissed. I am not in a good mood.

Nights.

Going to meet my personal hormone regulator in 400 hours time! =)

Day 8

2008-09-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

Group meeting at 11am. But, I am at home.

Meeting the Power Rangers and others at 330pm at Pyramid later!

I am going to have fun again!

Bye, peeps! Love yah!

Day 7

2008-08-31T11:59:00.003+08:00

I know some of the group 9 member are gathering today to discuss about the props we are going to use for the Wizard of Oz sketch and also, the power rangers' things that we are going to use for track trip tomorrow. Yet, I am at home, not with them because I have family gathering later.

I will just update about my group cheer and also my orientation t-shirt that looks like this after wearing it twice.

First of all, my Group cheer goes like this:

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A malig-nine, A malig-nine,
A malig-nine, A malig-nine,
A malig-nine, A malig-nine,
A malig-nineeeeeee...

Tiam! *in hokkien- it means shut up*

A di ji A di ji Ah oh Ah.. *Wen Peng will say it first*
A di ji A di ji Ah oh Ah.. *all of us with claps*
A di ji A di ji sis bomba
A di ji A di ji rar rar rar!

Ai pia *in hokkien it means strive*
PIA PIA PIA PIA PIA!!
Ai E-nya *in hokkien it means want to win*
E-nya E-nya E-nya E-nya E-nya!

Goooooooooooo Malig-nine!
*****

Well, yes, all the hokkien thing was my silly idea. =S

p/s: I will do it to show my friends when I see them larh. =)

Next, this is my beloved tshirt.

For the buddy system in Taylors, we had a ugly yellow digi man tshirt too. But, trust me, this is wayyyyy nicer than that and its not ugly!

Day 6

2008-08-30T21:10:00.009+08:00

We had the fun fun telematch today! Wooooo~~

9 of the juniors came for telematch- Stephanie, Li Hoong, Wen Peng, Devan, Adrian, Lawrence, Azam, Jian and I. The O.Os that accompanied us was- Yuan Liang, Tien Meng, Michelle, Chui Munn and Ghi Waie. Then, Jian Min appeared when we had the fear factor eating gross food. Not so grossy but almost everyone one of us wanted to puke. Sorry. =/

The first station that we went to was the action potential station. Lol. Yes, a very good starting for malig-nine because we won that match. =)

Michelle, our active female OO, which practically helped us out in every game, every activity! And, I call her 'my second most common english name- Michelle'. This is because when we first met, I forgot her name, then she told me she has the most common english name starting with M. I blurted 'owh, Mandy ar???' Lolz. It was funny la, cause I didn't know why I said Mandy instead of Michelle also. But, yeah, Chui Munn is the Mandy then. Li Yen and Suki came to see us when it was about to end because they had some cheerleading thingy going on.

Then, after some group discussion on the field, we went to Ajima, I guess to eat our lunch. I was starving! Then, we crapped and lame-d so much. I didn't know Tien Meng seriously until today, during the lunch. He's so funny and lame! So many funny things he did. Lol. Bladder is urinary gland. ;-p And, he's SO SO SO sweet! He catches lizards for his girl friend because she won't be able to sleep when there's lizard in her room. See? So man! Awww.. And, he's smart! He got 98 out of 100 for his ISAT, people!

p/s: Stephanie and I planned to send our future boyfriend to him for a boyfriend orientation. Don't play play people! There's actually other guy which consults him how to and what to do for anniversary! *claps* I am very proud to have you as my senior! Hahah.. But, he can't dance cause he said he's a slow learner. So, alright, for dance orientation, I will send mine to Yuan Liang! He can dance so well!

Seriously, I loveeeeeee my OOs! I just cannot find another word to replace the love word. I have been saying that alot too, to my mummy, my sister, my friends. =) And sooner or later, they might think I am crazily in love with all of them. Lol.

Malig-nine has the B-E-S-T orientation officers! *I realised I have been saying that alot in my bloggie too.*

Gonna meet them on Monday for track trip in Pyramid. Then, staying with Stephanie. Tuesday is my embarrassing day. =S I better watch some clips on Wizard of Oz and read more about Dorothy.

Almost everyone is calling me Mezhen now, except a few that agreed that I don't look like her. After Tuesday, I'll most probably be known as Dorothy. Tsk tsk. I am See Wei, people! But I gave up saying 'nolarh, I don't look like her larh' to people already. Now, I will say 'oh, thank you thank you!' Haha.. p/s: Mezhen is the vice president of the Student Representative Council. She's smart and sweet too. So, yeah how to compare me and her??!! Tsk tsk. *watery puppy eyes*

This is a picture of how my pants look like after the telematch. Presenting you, the pants I wore when taking ktm home cause there wasn't any place for me to change. Now I know why people stared at me. I didn't know its that bad. Really. And by the way, that's the back part somemore. -.-" And my left part of my hair was like, baked- egg, flour and oil I guess? I had a hard time washing my hair today.

After sitting on the grass which is wet, curry, butter, eggs, flour, what so ever. Gross I know.

The fact that my left shoulder is so so painful that I cannot lift my hands up properly, and I walk super slow down and up the stairs because my thigh muscles hurt even more now. I take time to sit and stand also.
But but, I had fun and its worth everything- its a once in a life time experience that I will treasure forever and ever.

Day 5

2008-08-29T23:08:00.005+08:00

I haven't been sleeping for more than 24 hours.

My movements are very very restricted now. My thighs are feeling very tight and my arms can barely do anything, but yeah, my fingers are fine.

My orientation officers rock! ROCK. ROCK. ROCK! I cannot have better seniors than them- Yuan Liang, Li Yen, Michelle, Khee Lung, Hung Yew, Tien Meng, Sook Yeen, Jolene and also Ghi Waie. We had lots of other seniors which help us out suddenly, like.. Jian Min (I am not sure how to spell his name and he's from semester 5) Hung Yew ditched us tonight for his Avril Lavigne concert.

p/s: Ghi Waie is in semester 5 already! And yet, he got to cheat us all that he is doing semester 1 with us, mingle well with us and just play along- until he was revealed last night after the mass dance! He cheated all of us! But, heck; he is a nice super senior! =) And the rest except for Hung Yew is in semester 4; with Hung Yew from semester 2! ROCK. ROCK. ROCK!!

Treasure hunt was very tiring, but all in all, I had fun like every other night. But but!! I hated the indian group of guys- who cares where on ass are they from- WE HATE them! Yes, I know orientation is meant to toughen us up, but wtf, they treated the juniors so inhuman-ly! You suck, that particular indian group! #$^#%!&@&$@&

p/s: NO offense to other indian people, its just them!

I loveeeeeeee my orientation officers so much!!!!!!!!!!... *hugs*

The barely can walk and don't really go for outdoor activities girl, which is me, now attending all the activities, JUST FOR my OOs!

Telematch is tomorrow. Fun!

Day 4

2008-08-28T22:11:00.002+08:00

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Sam Foong aka my dearest brother! =)
You are now 20!
I am sorry for waking you up today by calling. But hey! I called to Aussie ok? =)
I love youuuuuu, Sam bro! You are the best elder brother! *hugs*

I had fun again tonight- the event was mass dance. I wanted to skip at first, but I went also lah at last. I have team spirit and I want to have fun! =) =) And, YES, it was so fun! Merely dance my body off following the steps by the seniors and then sweat like I haven't been sweating for 1 year! Lol. I am happy and hyper now, with my muscles all aching like crappp..!!

p/s: The coffee that was provided after the mentor-mentee session is so.... so... making me awake and hyper! Die larhhh...

Tomorrow is the day- Treasure hunt, babe! =)

Go...... Malig-nine!! Hehehe!!

Oh, and I got cheated by one of my team member! Urgh. Talk about it later cause its suppose to be secret until next week! I don't want my orientation to end so fast!! =(

Day 3

2008-08-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

Today was so good that my body is practically aching now.

I have no time to update much right now, wait till weekend and I shall blurp all the stories, if I still remember them! But, whatever it is, I have the rockest, coolest and most protective orientation officers- (we call them the OOs- the seniors)! They rock! =)

We had the dry ice breaker session and also the wet ice breaker session! Wootz! I had fun! My pretty yellow shirt turned half pink in front and half green behind after the session! And my beautiful clean WHITE pants turned pink in front and black behind. =( Flours, colourings aka paint, creams, marjerins and eggs.. etc were used! We had 6 stations to go to, to complete the task given. Each time, there'll be 2 groups competing.

My group! JengJeng... Presenting the Group 9, which is also called the 9-ners and malig-nine!
p/s: malignant is the tumour which is invasive and harmful because they will eventually spread to other parts of your body and you'll die faster la! In a way, we're trying to say we will conquer you. Muahaha! But yeah, we needed to put that 9/ nine somewhere in the group name, so we ended up choosing malig-nine!

My group cheer will soon be posted. Give me time! My 24 hours now, is really really NOT enough! =(

Then, the dirty pigs- Kevin, Esther, Guan Teck and I went to Asia Cafe in the soaking wet condition to eat and the fans were practically fan-ning us! We were hungry ok? Ate sandwishes at 4pm and had to do so many activities! Energy also not enough ar. But, yeah, we were GOOD!

I really need the sleep. Goodnight!

Day 2

2008-08-26T20:11:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very inferior.

I don't know how to say it, but worriness seem to drown me everyday.

I know it is going to be long; I also know it is going to be tough; I know I am going to loose part of my life.

But, being aware of all this, how well can I manage it then? I'm getting weaker everyday.

The reason that make me stay; will it be sufficient to pull me through this long event without studying my love which has been such a motivation to me, which has been my best friend for 4 years?

Still searching and praying that I could choose the right one.

Frustration. Depression.

Whats the dream about?