want and don't want

i want to go to the beach!

i want to go to the highland. eg: Genting to play! (going going!)

i don't want holiday to end!

T.T

what should i do now?

to my dear friends who has been constantly studying for tomorrow, i wish you ALL THE BEST!
i will see you guys back very very soon!

i remember saying this to a friend, 'if no fate, have faith then.'

:) have a great weekend!

p/s: i am currently IN LOVE with super cute and colourful cupcakes.

wheee

i just want to spend the rest of my holidays...

1. having my busy boyfriend spending as much time with me!
2. updating about myself to Mei Jiun and vise versa.
   
3. pampering my brain, which means least thinking is required!
4. pampering myself with loads of.. food and bla bla?
5. having lesser pimples before semester 3!
6. get my treasure hunt plan done very very impressively. :)
7. lose 1kg? *laughs*
8. run again, without having the knees and foot to pain again.
9. go shopping!
10. sleep, eat, chat, play, sleep, eat, chat.. play!
11. laugh and laugh, meeting people who are back from overseas!
12. be a good girl, sleeping and waking up at the right time.

okay, time to get all this done!

miss phrase

you know, when I said 'but i am not letting go, i believe there is still much to believe in'.

I really meant it.

I should keep that phrase deep deep in my heart and make it my favourite phrase. :)

Yes, I love you miss phrase!

I heard this on tv on Friday and today, when I was watching the repeat of the drama. It says,

we always chase after what we want and dream of,
after getting what we want, we will be afraid of losing it.
but when the fear of losing it accumulates, we will be losing more.

its for your thought. true, no?

New Balance Klang Pacers 1/2 Marathon (7/6/09)

i did it! i made it!

okay, i ran and jogged like a snail all the way! something to be proud of - i did not walk at all because i know once i walk, i will not jog all the way anymore. i couldn't feel my leg at the last 5km!

it was the half marathon- 21km!

i am happy! :)

the boyfriend accompanied me ran the last 200m to the finishing! :)

i am happier!

i have altogether 3 blisters, I think. :( The knee caps felt like it is going to drop out! I cannot feel the joint properly joined. What more, the pain which is medial to my foot which started to pain after 2km and now reached the ankle. Practically, I am not going to walk so much for a few days!

oh, pain! :(
i am happy still because i am satisfied with it.

thank you Ying See for accompanying me through out the run, it made the run more relaxing and fun! :)

It wasn't easy, but it paid off. its always 'just a bit more to go.'

the pain

its time for the disease to attack. its back, the insomnia.

every time i run, there is a pain which i cannot describe on my left foot. slowly, it pulls the ankle to pain along too.

why can't I endure the pain? why can't I distract myself from it? why is my body treating it like a foreign feeling, which must be diminished?

WHY??

i am afraid, not only the laziness that make me run less; the spirit that I once had for running has gone; the feeling for me to complete the half marathon without giving up halfway is fading; the cause of the pain which is never cured ever since is troubling.

i don't want to disappoint myself. maybe I shouldn't have signed up in the first place- being peer pressured. I don't want to disappoint those whom got pressured from me and then followed me unwillingly signed up for this, and the one whom encouraged me all the way to never give up (not even if my foot got to be amputated).

i asked myself today while running- why do I run? what is your purpose of running today?

now I ask myself, when was the last time I ran because I love running? honestly, its been a long time. maybe a few months.

Mei Jiun, the Ipod you bought for my birthday was helpful today, it made me ran although it is just that small distance. I remember how I used to tell you about running and sports, about the club that I am in... and made you came into conclusion and be happy for me that I have found what I like, and bought me the red Ipod. :)

What if?