friendship?

"I guess when certain things are said, we cannot take it back.

Also, when certain things are done, we cannot just ignore it and move on."

That's a friendship, I guess? Although people always say, 'forgive and forget'.

Some things in life, its easier said than done, I know that very well. Its not that I don't care about it, its just I don't know what I can do about it. I used to believe, if I don't need you in my life in order to keep me going, I don't mind losing you, because you are just a friend. Trust me, that would mean nothing, and I won't even bother to get upset. But, that is a belief I guess, because it didn't work; didn't work well although I have tried convincing myself.

Give me more time. I shall.. try my best to get you out of my sight, my everything, for the hurt that I once gotten, and left me a scar.

Life goes on, whether it is sweet or sour.

Its been 78 hours, and it felt like forever! Just, 2 more days to go.

*****

(Le Min, myself and Ying See)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ying See! :)

You are a great senior and a valuable friend. I will forever remember how you kept me going during my very first hike. You never left me alone, never complain, but always be there for me keeping me in your sight, making sure I am safe. You tried singing songs too, to make me less tired.
Thanks, for everything!

*hugs*. I hope you will have a great day, filled with joy and happiness!

27/12

Uh..

Its my hottest mummy and handsome daddy's 1 year anniversary.

:)

Yeah, it still make no sense that both of them are younger than me, daddy by a mere few days which makes him happy, and mummy by a year? :(

I love the both of you!

*****

On the other hand, I was feeling so heart pain, as in, yes, the last time I felt this was like 10 days ago? Sighs. For me, its still health first, then everything else.

p/s: get the hint now?

No, I am not complaining that life have not been good and etc etc; the truth is, life has been too great! :) I know exams are near and its so weird to say life is great at this moment. Hah~ I just had to because I feel so, kays?

ALL THE BEST to everyone I know that is going to sit for exam in a few more days!

xmas '08

MERRY CHRISTMAS, peeps!

I know some people are having holidays, and some are busy studying for exams. Oh well, no matter what, I hope all of you will have a memorable Christmas!
ALL THE BEST!

:)

joyce teh

Dearest, JOYCE TEH!

HAPPY 19th!

And it has been such a wonderful 11 years of friendship with someone like you, so happy-go-lucky and would laugh so hard with me! Oh, there were the silly watching drama days and cry together too! :)
I know you will have a great day, with or without me. I will compensate, arite? xoxo.

2s'

This is my 120th post. :)

Its the 22nd of December that I shall remember.

How things can be associated with 2.

:)

tertanya

cuaca yang tersenyum,

hati yang terlindung,

seperti matahari yang tidak kelihatan,

apakah hari ini akan seperti esok?

berkekalan?

kuberusaha mencari sumber haba,

gagal,

kuberusaha mencari sumber angin,

bagi meniup perasaan ke arah lain,

hilang dari pandangan,

gagal,

apakah esok akan seperti hari ini?

daun masih hijau,

langit masih biru,

segalanya masih kekal,

tertanya.

IMU Infinity Milers

emotional

That was what attracted most of us.
That was what they first shown us.
That was how, at the end of the day, we signed up.
And, that was how, the bonding and unity came about.

I cannot say in word or describe my feelings right now. I went into Miler's blog, saw Justin's latest post about last training session on the 17th, then I don't know why, I scrolled down and saw that video. Excitedly, I loaded it, and watched it. At the moment they started singing the Miler's song, my heart felt it. I remember how I felt when I first saw it, I remember when I first sang that song, what Ray Mun told me about that song and how things is going to change after this. Emotionally, I teared silently, it just kept flowing and I kept wiping it away. I tried very hard to be a strong girl, knowing, its not the end but another beginning of everything, but my heart just resisted what I was thinking. I am not that strong girl everyone thought I am, and I am sorry for disappointing you people.

I too, cannot imagine how my last training session with the current committee will be like. I have thought of not attending the training, because if I don't, then I will not ever have the 'last training'. Or, I was thinking of just going through the running and all, but not attending the de-briefing session, as it will obviously be one of the most emotional sessions that I can see. I know, deep down my heart, all this won't work, I will go, for the last training session with them, savouring every moment using all the 5 senses we were exposed to. I will forever, remember it, everything about it.

What does a dark sky tell you?
For me, it signifies heaviness of the cloud. It had to let go the heaviness because it no longer can withstand the weight. Thus, raining soon will take place.

What does a heavy heart tells you, when you are sad?
For me, it tells me, its time to cry. Let it go.

From this and after a conversation with uncle, I learnt to never bond with the patients in future, as in, never have a strong bond but have empathy for them. Or, I will definitely feel how I felt at this very moment, crying for over 30 minutes. I just have to be a little more selfless, pass the way I feel, what I have gone through and how I went through experience to my juniors next time.

For now, I have another assignment for the bigger picture. Bye!

2 more, and that's it. :(

Just when we all got closer,
Just when its already towards the end of the year,
Just when its all about to end,
and we are left we 2 more exciting and looking-forward-to trainings,
Just when everytime I think about it,
It'll somehow make me stop and stare at the clock,
Hoping it would stop at that moment,
For every great things that are happening currently to stay,
and for every single disappointing events that happened to be washed away.

This is when, we are all becoming a whole big happy cool family.

To Infinity and Beyond! :)

Mizuno Wave Run, 2008.

5th Dec

It was 5th December, and I know its near, very near already. Try counting down and you will know. I shall move to find my second home and make it my second home.

I have never done that, but wonderfully at the end of the day, I enjoyed, and I am satisfied with what I brought home with me last night. It was a long day, staying awake from 5am to 12am was something I haven't tried before this. But, the time tick-tock-tick-tock, just flew by. :( Oh, and its also today that I had dinner at William's, a place where its like a mamak but with all kinds of food (you name it, and you get it concept) and its crowded, most importantly, the food is delicious! :)

Oh gosh, when I thought I had quite a good day and was hoping it will end with a smile just before I sleep, it turned out to be a emo one. I accidentally deleted ALL my inbox messages! :( :( For those who know me well, you know how sad I can be if that happens, and duh, for circumstances like, need to reformat phone which leave me with no choice only will make me let go messages. Urgh, that's how stupid I can be. Arrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhh....

I shall try to get over it. Gawd, I still feel the lost.

:)

Once, my new-found uncle to be, given the all kinds of nickname by me, now ended up calling him uncle told me, if there's something he has learnt throughout the last year or so, is that we really got to balance things out. Show our parents that we are willing to work hard in studies and in training, and we shall have blessings for everything that we want to do.

I still remember once when I was feeling bitter about myself, neglecting certain things in my life. Knowing, there is no way I can keep things like how I want it to be, no matter how much I try, I will still have to give up something. I cannot have everything that I want, no?

I guess; everyday, every minute, as I am getting older, I am missing something, something I cannot tell what it is. I learn to appreciate the chances I have, do what I want most and being more positive about life.

Sometimes, having more cells that are curious to know things in me brought things around me looking more interesting. This made me became Bella too, and I found 'my' Edward. 'my' Edward's look is of course not like the Robert Pattinson larh, but I am not a superficial person, so, yeaps, its okay. This is a top secret. :) Its so good that, I can sort of 'read' him, but *evil grins*, he cannot 'read' me.

For now, I gotta go because I am the uncle's niece now, and more responsibility to hold.

Byes!

And, I got a super sweet and thoughtful small gift called the 'Ralph Lauren Black Patrick' today from Edward. Thanks! :) :)

Everyone made my day! 1/12/08

every little you do

Yesterday Mei Jiun came online and asked me to tell her that I do love her. Gosh, I was shocked because she has never never said that before. Soon, I came to know why! :) :)

p/s: I still cannot stop smiling whenever I thought of what you did for me, darling!

Although, I am not going to say what you did for me exactly right here and now, but I just want to let everyone else that reads my blog to know, how love can bring things about. Basically, I wanted a soft toy, that I find it very very hard to get in Malaysia, seriously. So, I told her how much I wanted the toy, and straight she told me, she would go to the arcade and win it for me. Yes, you hear that, win the toy for me! Being her manja princess, I guess that is one of the ways she pamper me. Hee!

Last Thursday, she called me in the morning and told me, its not easy to find the toy as well and arcade may not have it. I was sad, but you know what, all that matters is that she actually remember me everywhere she goes and knows what I want. :) So, soon, I got over it and maybe I am just not fated to find that toy, because she got me something else that was about the toy as well, the day before that. I guess this is how, a best friend can always win her best friend's heart. She always did win my heart, and me, knowing, nothing can replace her, or find another her.

Yesterday was a long but fun day for her I guess. I know she was extremely excited when she finally got the toy for me! She told me, she never get to win anything before this, when she plays at the arcade. However, she won that lovely toy I wanted so much yesterday. I told her, this shows how much her love for me can bring things about. Seriously, we agreed. What bonded both of us together is our differences, we don't really have much things in common; but I always hold on to my philosophy: opposite attracts. And, believe me, this philosophy has been a decade. :)

Best friend, I really really do love you and appreciate every little thing you do for me. Every little things count, I remember you were once upset because you knew, you disappointed me. But soon, you learnt, I wasn't mad at you for what you have did, but because I cannot afford to see you get hurt by anything, I was disappointed.

All I want to say is that, I am always there for you, like how you are always there for me, for my everything from happy news to bad news to exciting news, funny stories and embarrassing ones too! :)

Here's part of my favourite lyric from 'Every little thing you do' by Westlife, just for you:

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

Yeaps, I love you!

surprises.

I went ahead with the chance.

I don't know what was the outcome or consequences, but I am perfectly positive that I made the right choice.

At least, I had it once, right?

:)

It was a good Friday, indeed. No, not very happening, just busy.

And, I think I start to love small small surprises already, compared to last time where I hated surprises of any kind. Heh! Of course, only surprises with good and sweet intentions, not to scare or freak people out! :)

taking the chance

Since things are getting more emotional every Wednesday, I learn to treasure every second I have in the evening. Not that I take things for granted every Wednesday before this, its just, I was more likely taking it less emotional, or never emotional until last week when I felt I should, starting this week. So, yeaps, its tomorrow. An evening to treasure, value and appreciate.

Last week was good, road relay. :)

This week is something new for me to look forward to. Yes yes! :) :)

And, guess after much advises and persuades from my fellow trustworthy friends, I will take the chance again this time. She was right, I won't want to look back one day and ask myself, why didn't I take the chance when I had; what if I have taken it? So, when I was really really struggling to know what my heart and mind wants, I decided that it is even better if I were to know the outcome after taking the chance.

I know, chances like this don't happen everyday.

So, yes, I shall not think about it anymore, and take it!

Wish me luck.

Oh, Twilight is coming out in the cinemas this Thursday, people!
27th November!

sighs.

How true can the idiom be? The one that says 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'?

Oh well, I personally think that, the idiom is true in certain situations. The distance between my best friend, MJiun and I is around 4108 miles and seriously, it makes our friendship bond stronger each and everyday. Every time when she comes back which is once in a year, we will hang out a lot to talk about the things we went through without each other while watching dvd then spending time to reminisce the times we had for a decade.

Yet, there's this saying 'so near yet so far'.

I think after today, I kind of got the meaning too. I felt it. Not because I am nervous or stress or anticipating to the events this week, I am just.. feeling.. helpless about something. I would have ran to MJiun if she's here, with me. I know, she's always a call away, but its just different. I wanted her comfort. She is my comfort zone.

I am a weird person, or you can call me, don't know how to appreciate things girl. No, not that I don't appreciate what people do for me, I meant.. I don't know how to appreciate chances that I get. And, this happened not only once, but always. Then, I will get myself into dilemma and having the 'heavy-heart' feeling and eventually my cheeks will be wet. I don't understand myself, before getting permission for something that I want to do badly, I will go all out to get that permission. But after getting it, I will start to think whether I should or I shouldn't.

I hate myself for being such a full of doubt girl. I hate regretting!

you.

When I am weak, I thought of you.
When I was in my semi-conscious mind, I dreamt of you.
When I have doubts, I go to you.
When I needed someone to hold on to, I wanted very much to hold on to you.


I guess, its just you that I hope to rely on.

Its just so coincidental, that this song, came into my mind. 'My Love, by Westlife.'
Ah, suits the whole scene now.

its just so.

Have you ever wondered, why we are easier to be mentally tired than physical? Well, you may not exactly have to agree with me, but I have been thinking about it but I just don't know why. So, yes I wonder if you guys think like me.

I guess, at the end of the day, I am still the soft hearted one.

I think, I miss the old Britney Spears songs and video clips. I just watched them from you tube. Her first album was sweet, lovely and awesome. :) I love 'born to make you happy', 'sometimes' and 'from the bottom of my broken heart' video clips. They are good.

Sorry, I know this is random.

Did I mention in any way, that it is easy to piss me off nowadays? Yes, I am telling you please do not piss me off or irritate me unnecessarily. Thanks.

aiks. end - hurray!

For me, yesterday was a don't know-why-day. I did a lot of things without a reason, for example, going to uni, was seriously a waste of petrol, sleeping hours and time. But, yeah we still went. The lecture was so empty! :(

The feeling of missing someone is bad, especially if that someone is very dear to your heart. Out of no where, I miss MJ so much that I could tear at that moment because my heart felt so empty yet heavy. But I chose to text her instead of crying, so yea. I miss you, Jiun! The negative thing is that she's only coming back after 1 week and 1 day after my birthday, and that we will only have 1 day time to spend together after so long because she's leaving for HK with family for a short holiday after that. Duggit duggit!

Now, I wish I am not going to stay in Vista because.. I want to spend my night time with her, everyday! till she goes back to Aussie. :(

Well, she was then busy hosting meeting with her ADND committee, and me being the too free one, typed out all my hiking days stuffs to her so that she could read after her online meeting, every single detail that I could remember. Now, we have a 'pocket secret' that is too sweet to be revealed. You see, others might just think its nothing, but for me and me, I will remember it for life and definitely things surround me will trigger me to think about the 'pocket secret'. I miss it. How wonderful can 1 touch be, sometimes? Hah~

At the peak, with 10 degrees celcius, the stars still look so pretty! Thank goodness I didn't miss it. Good times, good times.

Lol. I am officially engaged to MJ via facebook. long story, don't bother asking why we came to this conclusion of making it known to people. This is a long distance which will survive! :)

Survived

Heys! This is just a short update.

In case some people is wondering whether See Wei survived the hiking and came home safely, the answer is a YES!

The 35 of us are very very satisfied and happy and safe and positive! :)

We went through it!

I will update more pictures in the next post. Tah-z!

My hiking group, called the 'Leech Lovers' and 2 guides. :)

p/s: I start to miss them already and the hardships, really. YUM YUM YUM!

the upcoming hike : 7-10 Nov

Hello, welcome back! :)

Seriously seriously, if I have a lot of time doing nothing nowadays, I would rather sleep or facebook, than updating my poor bloggie. I guess this will be my once in a week post because I only visit my blog to link to some other blogs everyday, and not posting something here. So, please bear with me. I am sorry that there are no pictures in my blog again, erm, I don't know why.

I guess a bunch of us are excited that this week is finally here! And that Friday is approaching real soon. Ok, why Friday?

Because.....

Its our first major hike to Gunung Batu Puteh in Tapah, Perak. More like it is situated at the border of Perak and Pahang. So, yeah, whatever. Take note that this mountain is 2131 meters. Imagine, it is almost 5 times the KL Tower height? KL Tower is basically 421 meters. So, yes, yours truly is trying out something really really interesting, new and challenging (very challenging actually). :)

I have no idea what to imagine right now for and about the hike. I guess I will do what Roderick said: Empty your cup of coffee and start filling the cup again. Throw away all your thoughts, experience it yourself. Fill the cup as you go on.

Its not cheap to go for a hike. You see, people like me, the first timer will need a lot of new things. Such as, headtorch which costs me RM35.90, a water proof jacket, a hiking bag (I want to invest in one but mummy said no), hiking shoe which won't cost me more than RM100, and lots more. NO! This is definitely not a complain, lol, its just, sharing my first time hiking expenses with you guys. :)

Why am I so into running and climbing mountain or hills nowadays? Hmm.. I don't really have a reason to that question. For one, I know running keeps myself more persevere, because I just cannot run halfway and quit. Same goes to climbing, I cannot reach the peak and said, 'I don't want to do this anymore' or 'argh, I will just roll down, save time'. It helps in building a whole new personality and attitude that are way more positive and enriches our life experiences. Not everyone goes climbing, I bet. If I didn't choose to join Infinity Milers, I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't have experienced any mountain climbing nor running once in a week. Another plus point is that, I got to know a bunch of super cool and helpful people in the club. :)

Since I am going for the climb, I have something to update in collaboration with the hike. My calendar says:
November is the month of TEAMWORK - teamwork is a collective efforts of individuals working on towards a common goal, sharing mutual success.

Again, the 'TEAMWORK' and its explanation is meant for all of us. The common goal will be reaching every peak safe and sound and touching down the ground on 10th Nov happy and satisfy. The success is that, we made it and all the hard work will be paid off. :)

p/s: I pray I won't be eaten and also a minimum amount of leeches please! Lol! I shall update about 'the list' after the hike!

Tah-tah people. Take care!

Deepavali

Oh, HWAPPIIE DEEPAVALI, pals! :) :)

:) Have a great great light festival and yes, may the light bring more sunshine and success into everyone's life!

Hugs.

Night hike (24-10-08)

Hello bello and ello! :)

As I mentioned earlier, I went hiking on Friday night. Oh firstly, thank goodness it didn't rain when we were hiking! Thank God! :) :)

We started hiking around 830pm I guess after waiting for another 2 cars that got lost and a little inspirational talk by Roderick and a little 'think out of the box' game. Yes, it was dark by then. And the trail was super muddy and thus, slippery. At certain track, you can even feel your feet going into the muddy soil. Lol! Then, walked across super small river, or maybe its not even called a river, just water flowing through place, thus making our shoes wet and hmm.. soggy? Its not so bad actually, cause the weather was good. The funny thing was that whenever I hold on to any of the tree branches, the water droplets on the leaves will be shook then drop on us, making Jeannie screamed once because she thought it was drizzling! Ahaks ahaks! :)

Nevertheless, its again my another experience hiking at night. More to come, more to come! Although we got lost for a while, but at last we found the way back to the exit again at 11pm plus. Then headed to Steven's Corner to eat dinner around 12am. Uh-huh, our life don't sound that stress and hectic after all, right? Ho-ho. Reached home at 1am plus near to 2am.

p/s: I personally think Justin's diagnose is right. Sighs.

I need to stay in Vista, yeah.

Have a great weekend and a free splendid holiday on Monday! :D

Owh, according to my calendar, the October month is the month of perseverance. :) Fits me and milers perfectly. With a little elaboration, its written: just over the mountain is a beautiful valley, but you must climb the mountain to see it. :)

Cheers!

Milers. :)

Infinity Milers, the most caring club you can ever have, planned a pre-pre summative for us. :) So cool right, thus, making some of us stress and then study, trying to memorize the notes, or even swallowing them! But come to think about it again, I start to love the way we were asked to study (in a way, do revision) and then, being a running and mountain climbing club, we were needed to perform some fit exercise to answer their questions.

The plan obviously came from the Mr. Hyper (Justin), which was also my orientation's treasure hunt's planner and so, we went through the similar routes again, from one station to another to answer what ever questions they asked yesterday. As far as I can remember, there were 5 stations yesterday. My first station was the Wei Sheng and Le Min station, next was Roderick and Xin Ying, then Mr.Pres (Ray Mun), and then, all the way to Whei Ying and Jeannie's station and lastly, the Mr.Hyper and Ying See's station. :) Running up and down but more to walking and slow jog, making decisions whether to do burpies, star-jump, push-ups or sit-ups. Lol!

The happiest thing was that, I have had another experience I have never had! It was....

raining!

Yes, we did all that under the rain. :) date: 22.10.08

The next thing I want to do is urhm.. dance slow dance under the rain. :) *shhhh...*

*****

Tomorrow is Friday! Our Bukit Gasing hiking day! :) Night hike. I suppose its going to be fun because partly, I get to see more stars, and get nearer to them? Yay-ness! Imagine, you carrying 4 bottles of 1.5 litres of water up tomorrow. Yes, that is what we are required to do because we are preparing ourselves for a 4 days 3 nights hike. Ho-ho.

Please please DO NOT rain! Please please.. *prays hard*

I know its going to be fun under the rain again, but I don't want my shoes to get dirty, wet and muddy again. Ahaks, I know this is contradicting. :/

Seriously, every week walk past me so quickly that before I even realise, its again the weekend. :( Slow down, slow down!

Till then, bye folks, and I shall come back soon to elaborate on my night hike! :D Have a fantastic weekend, alright?

19-10-08 ( Good day)

Hey folks! This is my 100th post! :) :)

And I have achieved something today!

*drums roll*

*still rolling*

*stops*

Its just another ordinary Sunday for some of you out there, but for the 57 of us, from IMU, today is definitely another eventful day. Yes! We participated in the Mizuno Wave Run (10km). Why is it called wave? Erm, basically its because there were up hill and down hill, thus sounding like a wave? So, yes, I was told that this wave run is one of the most difficult runs in Malaysia! :)

And... I made it! We made it! :)

Despite the dilemma I was going through the whole day yesterday, I am glad that I at last chose to run. Oh, the reason I wasn't supposed to run was because of my in the healing process ankle. Hey hey, I do love my legs alright? Its just, I had to make it to my target. I am happy to be the less than 400 people in girls category to reach the end point. *I didn't get to look at the number I got, cause I felt like fainting.* Lol! I saw a 3** only. :(

But, whatever, I've got another finisher medal, yo! :) :)

I heard, only top 500 from woman category will get it, so yes, I am happy! All in all, 1300 medals will be given out. Despite the never-get-to beat my self timing this time, due to some unwanted accidents, I am happy that I completed it actually. 1 hour 20 mins was my target, but I completed it in I guess, 1 hour 25 mins? :(

There's always a next time. Heee..

I guess that's all for now. Oh, I love you guys for being such a great supporter. :) Especially Jeannie who waited for me at the first aid too. Love love!!

p/s: I am still the old See Wei you people know, its just, running and hiking really really are my interests now. The undying interests still remain, of course like loving the sky, loving the stars, the beach and watching movies with friends? :) Oh, this includes my contagious laugh!

I want to be the small girl, always. Can can?

shaky

I sincerely do hope that I will make myself promise not to run tomorrow.

But, deep down my little fragile heart..

Do you know how hard is it to make such a promise?

At the end of the day, I might not even promise myself anymore.

I have faith, I am going to make it.

I know, there is always another time to run, another time to make the dream come true.

Maybe its just me, the rebellious and stubborn me, where no one can STOP me from doing things I want to do. NEVER!

He, the concern Mr.Pres talked to me yesterday, gave me an analogy by saying about himself, what worries him and all those 'what if' this and that happens? At the point where we were talking, I almost teared, but it will be too embarrassing, thus I held strongly to my lacrimal gland, not releasing it. I didn't know how he can read my mind, because it was the same exact thing I was thinking every night, asking myself. I didn't voice it out, or ask anyone about it, because I know, no one understands it; at the end, I might look like some paranoid kid. No I am not! I don't want to be a burden to myself, what more my team? I will do whats best for the team.

I am really really torn apart. Trust me, its been a long time since I last felt it the way I am now.
Hopeless.

Li Teng told me, at least I had the bravery to sign up for both pacers when I am just a beginner. I know, even myself could not believe it, until last Sunday when I seriously completed the Klang pacer of 12km- my first ever run other than the school merentas desa! It wasn't at all easy, with my ankle injury and no first aids around and only one water stop. :( But I made it back in 1 hr 35 mins! I broke my own set-timing, which I am very happy. I got the finishing medal, I am happy.

What about tomorrow?
We will see, because the decision I made yesterday seem shaky.

Dear friends who are running for Mizuno tomorrow, I know we can all make it! :)

Stress

I felt the butterflies in my stomach ever since I woke up.

I guess it will never go off till tomorrow ends.

I hope I can finish it fairly well and not disappoint myself; I shall set the target and achieved it no matter what.

I have only done it once, and this is second. This is further (much further) and tougher.

Optimism helps? Sighs.
Being much a neurotic girl early in the morning doesn't help; as it only adds stress and more pimples on my chubby face. :( And I am now more prone to heart diseases and *coughs* cancer.

All the best to all my fellow friends who are running 12km tomorrow! :)

To Infinity and Beyond, yo! =)

Its been a real tiring week with lots of things to digest, absorbed then lastly kept in the blood forever and ever. I have pretty much adapted to the life already, its just getting used to it now and the next few years. I have been having lots of mood swings lately too, I just don't know why. But people who know me should know that I don't take long to be myself back, the bubbly one you see almost everyday unless I am pissed or angry in university. Be assured that I will still put on a smile even if I am unhappy alright? =)

Its just so natural.

***** (editted)

p/s: I am so sad, so stress and so emotional that I start to eat every 2 hours again! Sobs. Would someone just kill me? :(

HAPPY 19th to Miss Leong E Li!

pissed. rumours?

just tell me

how much do you know me?

DON'T just talk because you want to!

DON'T just say something just because you think its true!

Urgh. I am amazingly very pissed.

03-10-08

Big broad smile for what I did yesterday. :)

I went out with Yen Xi, Kevin and Guan Teck. :) Oh well, it was Kevin's birthday a day before yesterday and Yen Xi's birthday coming soon. I am such a manipulator, yes I am! :p So, of course we celebrated their birthday very very low profile-ly. After fetching darling YenXi, we bought the movie ticket. And, oh, PLEASE do watch Mama Mia! The show is way too interesting and sweet and lovable and.. *everything positive*. Then, headed to Parkson with the hope to get nice formal shirts for the cockroach, but he's way too choosy. Ended up buying n-o-t-h-i-n-g. :(

But, I got to take a picture of this cute girl, helping Kevin to carry the bear which we bought for him on his birthday.

Then, we just walk around aimless-ly.

My closest friend in uni. :)

The October babies- Libra!
Both my closest friend in uni that will pamper me.

Hon Meng Daddy ar, I was so excited to take this picture to show you! Its snoopy, yo!

A delicious and yummy cake from Delicious.

The buddies. Kevin calls himself Batman, and so, Guan Teck is his Robin?

<3

Have you seen the daddy-side of Kevin?

Awwww! He'll definitely be a wonderful daddy.

And, this girl will definitely be a excellent mummy!

At the end of the day...

Kevin and Kevin Junior.
That name was given to his 19th birthday present. Cute?
Now, Kevin, you have a bear and thus, my Swensens is safe!

The happy 4!

Go watch Mama Mia! :)

Did I mention, Twilight movie will be out in Malaysia on the 27th Nov?!!! *jumps around happily* :)

'the winner takes it all, the loser has to fall.'

Birthdaysss ;)

Hello folks! I hope everyone is enjoying their one week break. :) Coughs, other than friends in UK or Singapore which are not having a break, because my darling in Aus is having her one week break as well!

This post is mainly for me to wish:

Kevin Kwan Joo Ern, my darling cockroach

Hwapppyyy Bwafdayyyy!
:)

Like what I said, I will still pamper you when you want me to, although you are a year older now. Lol!

*dance around happily because the birthday boy owes me 3 ice creams, which I am now smarter for asking him to get all 3 ice creams from different places like ahem, Baskin Robbin and all. Lol lol. And, we are going out for more shirts tomorrow, and MamaMia!*

Now, you will surely remember my favourite birthday cake flavour, dong dong! :p

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Ho Ken Sing

Happy 20th too! (:

Can Sing, but Can-not Blow. Last year, in TGIF. rofl.

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sending 2 warm hugs to birthday boys......
sent.
received?

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1. Have you ever tried swimming when the temperature is 18.5 Celcius with a cold breeze blowing

2. Have you ever fallen in love with many many colourful flowers, which will make you feel like investing some money from your allowance every month, so that your mummy will buy more flowers and you can start gardening as well?

3. Have you ever tried being lame and your friends eventually gets lame too?

4. Do you have a childhood sweetheart?

I do, I have and

I am happyyyy!!! :D

1, 2, 3, 4, tell me that you love me more!

Kevin

The adorable side of Kevin was revealed last Friday when I purposely brought my lovely bear, Swensens to uni. Yes, to uni. Hahaha! Swensens was all the way sitting on Kevin's lap when he was driving me to uni. Kevin loves Swensens so much that he wants a bear on his 19th birthday too or he'll steal my Swensens! =) Eh no, this birthday tip is for me only okie! You people buy him something else! Bluek. He even told some people in uni that the bear belongs to him!

Kevin Kwan, tsk tsk. Here's a picture of him and little mischievous Swensens of mine.

Won't you love Kevin for being extremely childish and lovable? I will.
See him with soft toys then, or maybe just my Swensens. Heh~

Justin showed me 2 articles today. One made me laughed a lot, and another made me a little stressed and anxious. Urgh. Whats life in a few years time? *wonders*

I miss the times I had in Redang! I really do. I want to go there again, with some fun people again. Memories is such a great gadget that drives me missing it. Its all your fault, going with your friends without bringing me, you camel! =( *digs into Redang pictures again*

Celebrations!

Its been a real hectic week. No, I don't know why time seem to pass so fast and what awaits me every single day.

Like what Wen Peng said before Milers training that day:
'You know arh, this is what we all look forward to go for every week?' Yes, indeed, the Milers' training. I know, its running, and only running. But somehow, running a few kilometers seem to get my attention already. Although I have to admit that there are times I felt like sleeping more than running before training starts. But yeah, you know, we stay back for many many hours before training starts? Lol.

I still love running. :) Oh, I love the new park that we were brought to the other day, which was 3kilometers away from IMU. In total, you get to run around 8kilometers if you are in certain group, depending on who lead. I don't care how many kms I ran, all I know is that I have to train because I want to run for both the pacers that I have registered. Uh-huh, the smart me, sprained the ankle tendon and now it hurts whenever I walk. What more run? :(

Then, on Thursday, we celebrated Wen Peng and Devan's birthday! Yeah, both turning 19 only, so still can celebrate happily la of course. According to Dr.Galy, after 20, we shouldn't celebrate birthday anymore because that would mean celebrating us getting nearer to the grave. -.- Okie, whatever. Here's some pictures:

The cake from library cafe before it got smashed. :)

First stop, Wen Peng. A new way of smashing cake on someone.

2nd stop, Devan!

The beautiful cake that turned into, erm, no comment.


We still eat them, somehow!

The us!
Back from left: Kien Jeen, Khee Lung and Lawrence.
Middle row: Me, Yuan Liang, Michelle, Steph and Suki
Front: The 2 birthday boys- Wen Peng and Devan.

*****

Then, on Friday, we celebrated Kevin's birthday. Yes, its a little way too early, but we had to, because some of us cannot make it on his real big day! We ( E Li, Pei Li, Kai Jia, Carr Men, Guan Teck, Kevin and I) went to Secret Recipe in Sri Petaling after 3pm.

Kevin, with his natural smile that attracts many many *coughs*girls*coughs*and guys* :p

Its just him. Saliva all over the cake.

The us.
Back- Carr Men, Pei Li, Kevin, Guan Teck.
Front- Me, Kai Jia, E Li.

*****

Saturday and Sunday was a totally family weekend because we were all gathered in my cousin's house to help him out for his wedding and just hang around, talking and chatting. :)

I want to go prawn-ing! Fish-ing will do too! whatever.
p/s: Joyce Teh, lets go!
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First hiking on 20/09/08.

Good morning everyone!
My new record in sleeping straight for several hours is 15 hours! =) 15 hours! I have never imagined trying that, but I made it! Try it if you haven't. But, I don't think you will want to waste your time sleeping lah.

I went Klang Gates to hike with other Infinity Milers members! For your information, Klang Gate is NOT situated in Klang, ok? Its erm, 'somewhere over the rainbow' in Kuala Lumpur la, further than Zoo Negara and after a Bulatan Bukit Mas. It took us around 20 minutes from IMU to reach there.

Now, imagine you did not have a good night sleep because on Friday night because I went to cheer for my lovely family members whom were involved in cheerleading and it was also the night when IMU Cup officially ends! Then, after knowing who won for the cheerleading, it was already 12am. Then, Kevin, Guan Teck and I went to Adrian's house to shower before fetching Steph from Subang. After fetching Steph, it was already 1am. Sleep, sleep. Woke up at 3am because we should gather outside IMU at 4am according to Mr. President.

Then, on the highway early in the morning with 11 cars tailing Mr. President's car. You should see the awesome-ness! Its super cool where 12 cars move together ok! Then, reached there around 530am and we were divided into groups as usual. I have gotten Jeremy Joseph and Le Min as the leader. They rock! Then, climb climb climb! There were 6 peaks of hills that we went through before coming to the end down the hill. At the first peak, we waited to see the sunrise. Its super beautiful! According to Mr. President again, everytime he climbs, the scene of the sunrise is different and thus everytime is a different experience. This is my first time, I shall tell you all whether it is true to be different or not the next time I climb! =)

I didn't get to watch sunrise with you.

And, we celebrated Mr. Vice Pres's- Wei Sheng's birthday at the first peak. Happy Birthday, Wei Sheng! *i don't think he reads my blog anyway*

This is Wei Sheng.

Then we continued climbing all the 5 peaks. On the way of course being the real me, I fell on my knees once when climbing, then I even scratched my right hands on the rocks, and the funniest thing was I slipped on the way home. Its funny because Jun How reminded me NOT to slide at the place and right after he said 'DON'T slide', I slided and landed on my butt, which is very painful! =( My right ankle is also a little twsited, but all this pain is nothing because I had fun! I love fun and I shall climb again someday! =)

This is Justin.

Kevin Kwan!

Jun How, my batch rep- I owe him alot alot!

Thanks for keeping me safe throughout the climb and everything! Sorry for making your right side of body hurting because you had to hold my right hand using your right hand to walk all the way back and allowing me to accidently kick your precious sports shoe.
Seriously, THANKS ALOT!

Our group name: I want to pee! =) Always neutral, see 4 girls and 4 guys?

Justin hurt his hand. At least mine wasn't as bad as his!

Le Min, our senior! She's super cool and pro in climbing. =)

Ray Mun, the Mr. President whom I had to thank him for borrowing me his headtorch! Super bright headtorch which helped my friend front and back of me to see the track as well.

Esther. Me. Stephanie.

Wen Peng and I. He's my batch sports representative.

After climbing, we went to Steven Corner's to eat. =) I really did have fun.