eos 3- last day (day 4)

HAPPY NEW YEAR's EVE! :)

Exam ended at 10am! wheee!

And I have no comment..

Just wonder why I cannot score it perfectly. :( as in, no matter how calm you are, you just have to miss something! sighs.

Just have fun for a week now, and what comes by.. will come.

yay!

Avatar 3d- I am coming in 1 hours time!

HAPPPYYY FABULOUS BIRTHDAY, to miss loo say yee!

eos 3- day 3

i thought and i hoped it will be a good day or rather, a smooth exam day.

my first station

beep- read question. (tick tock tick tock 40 seconds gone)
beep beep- knock. start asking questions.
nice lady i would say. seriously! :)

5 minutes later. beep!

answer the questions related to the history taking.

OHMYGOD!

the trickiest station is JVP and liver palpation altogether. *i cannot smile anymore*

45 degrees than 0 degrees? kill me. :(

I remembered before walking in!

NO MORE! NO MORE this kind of mistake ever! you might kill someone with wrong diagnosis?

just one more day. keep it rolling, keep it going! ajajajaja fighting!

eos 3- day 2

at the beginning

confidence level: 80%

after day 1

confidence level: 50%

after day 2

confidence level: 20% (just putting false hope)

I really really need to pass.

Oh God.

day 3 and day 4 must must be good. MUST. please.

EOS 3- day 1

This is the start of world war 3; day 1.

I survived world war 2, and I hope I get to keep my upper limbs and lower limbs for world war 5. I really do.

p/s: world war 2 is actually my Semester 2 finals. and now, Semester 3 finals.

I need to survive.

Note to myself:
No matter how narrow is the stricture and no matter how strong is my opponent, I will never give up to look for a way out and I will not lose to myself.

the end of the 1.5 years relationship with the club

throughout this years in university, i personally felt my shoulders; the burden gets heavier each and everyday.

sometimes, there's not enough time for everything that you want to do, but you just have to make time for it. and, even if you plan ahead, the plan might never turn out to be the way you want it to be. things just don't follow the way you want it to be.

just yesterday, i told myself i am not going to tear in front of the juniors. i am going to be a strong girl. proud enough, i hold my tears till i went home, watched an hour of drama and cried for 5 minutes because the ending of the drama was very touching as well. how fate came to me right? having a drama ending on the night when my relationship; my responsibility towards the only club i have truly loved is over. last year, at the moment my seniors were stepping down, handing the club to us, i cried.

does this mean i have grown?

this is really going to be weird. my only escape every Wednesday. my only reason i cannot study every Wed night is now no longer there. i am going to miss my every Wed training with rain or no rain very much.

well, most importantly, the club will still stay strong under the juniors, and shine as much as it could.

always, to infinity and beyond!

appreciation

most of us, never know how to appreciate the people around us. and this includes me.

for a moment, you can say, 'i am not going to make my mum upset anymore or gosh, i am not gonna let myself feel bad for doing this to him/her anymore because it hurts.' the next moment, you turn around and you make your mum upset again.

hah. caught you! so..

count, how many times have you said that you will appreciate this person, that person and bla bla?

i was reading M's blog just 10 minutes ago. And, i cried publicly. the two person sitting behind me now in the computer lab must be thinking i have some mental problem or i just had a break up online. :p No kidding.

the reason why i always cry when i read her blog is because i feel this world is really unfair to her.. taking away the person she love so much, leaving her so sudden, and leave her living in misery. she was one of the very bubbly type of girls whom you can laugh all night with her, and she's very sincere in everything she does as well. but why?

from her, i really learnt nothing can be compared to love and good health; not even success. what is success if without love? love from the family, love from your partner, love from your friends.

i will rather live in a bubble of happiness and love than in a bubble of wealth and success.

the worse thing of all, i never get to finish reading every posts that are written in her blog, because i always close the window before i cry like a small baby. i have no courage to finish reading it, why?

M, i believe he is there, guarding you from the above. And that he is happy there too. please, take care of yourself.

fate and hard work

have you ever wondered, how long can you love the person you are loving now or once upon a time ago?

and what if.. he/she changes into someone whom you don't seem to know anymore?

will you try to adapt, change him/her or leave?

no matter which you choose, sometimes I personally think things should be made clear even before you get together with him/her. telling him/her there's no point of return if one day you turn into this this and this. sounds demanding, but.. for the future, it is worth.

because..
you don't want to hurt yourself and of course, you won't want to hurt the one you love.

someone once told me, you should always tell how you feel to your partner, or he'll never know how you feel, what you hope etc etc.. in fact, this is easier said than done for a girl like me. i cry more than anything.

when i am angry, i cry. when i am sad, i cry even more. :(

then at last you will tell yourself, if in future it is not meant to be, no matter how hard you work at the relationship right now, it is going to be a waste.

p/s: i believe in fate and hard work.

And I am glad and thankful that I still have my best friend sending me big big hugs when I need them. :) Thank you for being there!

this is her. :)