eos 3- last day (day 4)

HAPPY NEW YEAR's EVE! :)

Exam ended at 10am! wheee!

And I have no comment..

Just wonder why I cannot score it perfectly. :( as in, no matter how calm you are, you just have to miss something! sighs.

Just have fun for a week now, and what comes by.. will come.

yay!

Avatar 3d- I am coming in 1 hours time!

HAPPPYYY FABULOUS BIRTHDAY, to miss loo say yee!

eos 3- day 3

i thought and i hoped it will be a good day or rather, a smooth exam day.

my first station

beep- read question. (tick tock tick tock 40 seconds gone)
beep beep- knock. start asking questions.
nice lady i would say. seriously! :)

5 minutes later. beep!

answer the questions related to the history taking.

OHMYGOD!

the trickiest station is JVP and liver palpation altogether. *i cannot smile anymore*

45 degrees than 0 degrees? kill me. :(

I remembered before walking in!

NO MORE! NO MORE this kind of mistake ever! you might kill someone with wrong diagnosis?

just one more day. keep it rolling, keep it going! ajajajaja fighting!

eos 3- day 2

at the beginning

confidence level: 80%

after day 1

confidence level: 50%

after day 2

confidence level: 20% (just putting false hope)

I really really need to pass.

Oh God.

day 3 and day 4 must must be good. MUST. please.

EOS 3- day 1

This is the start of world war 3; day 1.

I survived world war 2, and I hope I get to keep my upper limbs and lower limbs for world war 5. I really do.

p/s: world war 2 is actually my Semester 2 finals. and now, Semester 3 finals.

I need to survive.

Note to myself:
No matter how narrow is the stricture and no matter how strong is my opponent, I will never give up to look for a way out and I will not lose to myself.

the end of the 1.5 years relationship with the club

throughout this years in university, i personally felt my shoulders; the burden gets heavier each and everyday.

sometimes, there's not enough time for everything that you want to do, but you just have to make time for it. and, even if you plan ahead, the plan might never turn out to be the way you want it to be. things just don't follow the way you want it to be.

just yesterday, i told myself i am not going to tear in front of the juniors. i am going to be a strong girl. proud enough, i hold my tears till i went home, watched an hour of drama and cried for 5 minutes because the ending of the drama was very touching as well. how fate came to me right? having a drama ending on the night when my relationship; my responsibility towards the only club i have truly loved is over. last year, at the moment my seniors were stepping down, handing the club to us, i cried.

does this mean i have grown?

this is really going to be weird. my only escape every Wednesday. my only reason i cannot study every Wed night is now no longer there. i am going to miss my every Wed training with rain or no rain very much.

well, most importantly, the club will still stay strong under the juniors, and shine as much as it could.

always, to infinity and beyond!

appreciation

most of us, never know how to appreciate the people around us. and this includes me.

for a moment, you can say, 'i am not going to make my mum upset anymore or gosh, i am not gonna let myself feel bad for doing this to him/her anymore because it hurts.' the next moment, you turn around and you make your mum upset again.

hah. caught you! so..

count, how many times have you said that you will appreciate this person, that person and bla bla?

i was reading M's blog just 10 minutes ago. And, i cried publicly. the two person sitting behind me now in the computer lab must be thinking i have some mental problem or i just had a break up online. :p No kidding.

the reason why i always cry when i read her blog is because i feel this world is really unfair to her.. taking away the person she love so much, leaving her so sudden, and leave her living in misery. she was one of the very bubbly type of girls whom you can laugh all night with her, and she's very sincere in everything she does as well. but why?

from her, i really learnt nothing can be compared to love and good health; not even success. what is success if without love? love from the family, love from your partner, love from your friends.

i will rather live in a bubble of happiness and love than in a bubble of wealth and success.

the worse thing of all, i never get to finish reading every posts that are written in her blog, because i always close the window before i cry like a small baby. i have no courage to finish reading it, why?

M, i believe he is there, guarding you from the above. And that he is happy there too. please, take care of yourself.

fate and hard work

have you ever wondered, how long can you love the person you are loving now or once upon a time ago?

and what if.. he/she changes into someone whom you don't seem to know anymore?

will you try to adapt, change him/her or leave?

no matter which you choose, sometimes I personally think things should be made clear even before you get together with him/her. telling him/her there's no point of return if one day you turn into this this and this. sounds demanding, but.. for the future, it is worth.

because..
you don't want to hurt yourself and of course, you won't want to hurt the one you love.

someone once told me, you should always tell how you feel to your partner, or he'll never know how you feel, what you hope etc etc.. in fact, this is easier said than done for a girl like me. i cry more than anything.

when i am angry, i cry. when i am sad, i cry even more. :(

then at last you will tell yourself, if in future it is not meant to be, no matter how hard you work at the relationship right now, it is going to be a waste.

p/s: i believe in fate and hard work.

And I am glad and thankful that I still have my best friend sending me big big hugs when I need them. :) Thank you for being there!

this is her. :)

yay yay yayyyyy!

sorry peeps, i know it has been long.

so much things going on in my daily life- though it feels the same everyday!

well, just a short update:

1. i AM going for my second mountain climbing next Friday! This time it is Gunung Besar Hantu, located in Negeri Sembilan. This mountain is not as high as the first mountain I have climbed, but it is still exciting! :) Only 2 days and 2 nights.
2. i have my exam on the same day i am leaving for the mountain!
   
3. i have been reminiscing alot these days. :)
4. i have again start to love running!
5. i ate Korean food with a bunch of hyper-loving people who have the same interest with me. (milers!)
6. i love small little surprises! (just when i am typing these- bf gave me a surprise)
7. 1 week to exam and i am going to watch movie later! life's good.
   

i shall be back with more stories after my climb. of course, i will hope all my readers will pray for all the climbers for safety and safety. :) thanksss!

treasure hunt mate's birthday

HAPPPPPYY BIRTHDAYYYYYY, Wen Peng! :)
It's your 20th!

woke up at 7am today because it was Wen Peng's birthday and I had to meet Say Yee at 750am to get cake at 8 plus from RT Pastry. :)

Mark planned a surprise for him. We waited and waited for everyone to gather at the tennis court nearby his house so that we can crash his house together, and that was around.. i cannot remember. Hahah. Malaysians are never punctual. :(

Then, his sister became our spy, to help us open the house door and lead us to his room. There... Wen Peng was still nicely sleepy with his face facing the wall and hugging his comforter to tightly. We lighted the yummmyyy Green Tea cake and stood around his bed and started singing the happy birthday song.

LOL + ROFL!

he slowly turned to us, and got a shock! should see his shock face, something you will never get to see often. :p he didn't scream unfortunately. he thought he was still dreaming! then, he blew the cake when he's still semi-awake and changed.

went off to One Utama for lunch at Sushi Zanmai and wanted to watch a movie. but, there were not enough tickets for us, so we went off to a journey of eating desserts (equivalent to spending money). We went Delicious to eat the classic chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream. Then, Haagen Dazs to have ice creams, and some had Starbucks mocha. :)

it was a fun and tiring day. *pics are with Precilia.

and imy.

heys! (24/9)

i have been sneezing so much lately!

p/s: thus, i suggest those studying pharmacy please come up with a genius solution for people like me.. create a drug for cold/ runny nose that doesn't cause sleepiness at all. somehow, clarinase is still sedative to me. :(

not like i haven't been getting enough sleep, not like i haven't been playing or having fun, not like.. i haven't been shopping or watching movie.. :( not like... i am not having a holiday!

in fact, i did all! :)

watched 2 movies. shop till my leg and purse hurts! :) and i am still going out.

so many people's birthday this coming month! i am officially broke. if you want me to go for a lunch with you, please treat me kay? :) *hint/ thank youuu for being so nice.

and you know what! that bubble tea shop aunty didn't sell me bubble tea this morning because i was early by 8 minutes, and the bubbles were not soaked long enough yet. BOOO! :(

and i realized, i am becoming more.. kiddish again; or should i say i didn't change at all??! friends, please bear with me. i think this is a form of stress.

and i watched House Season 6 episode 1 this afternoon! :) not very bad, but not really that exciting! i am waiting for moreeeee.. come diagnosis, come!

and pimples, please stop popping out! and those bacteria, please stop growing. thank youuu!

have a pleasant Raya break!

fun times

oh, and i went for a conference in the beginning of the Sept and a CF camp the following weekend! :) I miss that 2 care-free weekends which i spent most my time with boyfriend and friends playing monopoly deal!

On the way back to the Palace of the Golden Horses, after having dinner at Saloma.

Monopoly deal time during break, i think. we play whenever we have free time. :)

Addictive and fun!!!

The group in CF CHUP Camp. We are the 'Coke tak mau gula'.
p/s: boyfriend is missing from this picture. he's the camera-man.

does my hair looked short? hmm, it's hallucination.

I REALLY REALLY HAD FUN!

oh happpy day! (18/8)

this was what happened today, after having lunch with the boyfriend. i went to attend a treasure hunt briefing session with Wen Peng and another few guys. So, the boyfriend got a chance to go to stuffs behind me, which was unexpected. I thought he will head to the library to study. So, yes, I seriously thought so.

When I came back after busy-ing, randomly bf asked me..

bf: What are the phases in developing asthma?
me: HUH???? *almost going to cry* I don't know?
bf: *stares* you don't know?
me: *watery puppy eyes* I will look for the answer now.
bf: *waiting for the answer*
me: eik, what is this? *turns the booklet around* OMGGG!!! It is the MLTR concert tickets! :) :)
bf: *smiles so happily*
me: oh, the phases are sensitization- allergic-immediate-last phase!
bf: yeaps.
me: still cannot believe my eyes that I got the tickets! OMG YAY YAY! are you expecting me to cry?
bf: nolah! *smiles*

I am so happy! It will be my first concert, with the one I love! :)
What can make me more happy than getting this kind of surprise right? (makes me feel like I am some princess, and my prince came by on a white horse! haha.)

Yes, I love my boyfriend! <3

... after a while..

me: I feel like screaming out loud, dear! I am so happy!
bf: scream lah.
me: but I am in the quiet zone of the library! argh.

I think my boyfriend cannot stand me already. I want to do, then don't want to do. Haha, everything also I say. :p

I am still so happy, despite trying to withstand my runny nose. :)

8/8/09

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Pei Li and Carr Men!


At times, I really wonder, when can i get my courage back since I last lose it?
When can I really do something, because I really want to do it, and not just mere responsibilities made me do it.

When when?

after a long time

i really really don't know what to update anymore.

some things are better to be kept, than announced.

some things are better to be told personally, than to make it known publicly.

must every good things come to an end? (no!)
must people realize something is really that important to them after they lose it?
how do you prove you really care about that important person/ thing?
so, how do you gain the important thing back after you lose it?
how do you even get over the fact that you lose it?

i for sure, will cry till my glands go dry. (ha-ha)

can't life just be more simple? say what you want, do what you want.

at least that is how i manage my life.

my eyes will betray me. my eyes lead you to the truth.

so yes, i think people's eyes don't tell lies.

p/s: not emo here; in fact in pretty good mood. hah! just.. felt like posting questions.

want and don't want

i want to go to the beach!

i want to go to the highland. eg: Genting to play! (going going!)

i don't want holiday to end!

T.T

what should i do now?

to my dear friends who has been constantly studying for tomorrow, i wish you ALL THE BEST!
i will see you guys back very very soon!

i remember saying this to a friend, 'if no fate, have faith then.'

:) have a great weekend!

p/s: i am currently IN LOVE with super cute and colourful cupcakes.

wheee

i just want to spend the rest of my holidays...

1. having my busy boyfriend spending as much time with me!
2. updating about myself to Mei Jiun and vise versa.
   
3. pampering my brain, which means least thinking is required!
4. pampering myself with loads of.. food and bla bla?
5. having lesser pimples before semester 3!
6. get my treasure hunt plan done very very impressively. :)
7. lose 1kg? *laughs*
8. run again, without having the knees and foot to pain again.
9. go shopping!
10. sleep, eat, chat, play, sleep, eat, chat.. play!
11. laugh and laugh, meeting people who are back from overseas!
12. be a good girl, sleeping and waking up at the right time.

okay, time to get all this done!

miss phrase

you know, when I said 'but i am not letting go, i believe there is still much to believe in'.

I really meant it.

I should keep that phrase deep deep in my heart and make it my favourite phrase. :)

Yes, I love you miss phrase!

I heard this on tv on Friday and today, when I was watching the repeat of the drama. It says,

we always chase after what we want and dream of,
after getting what we want, we will be afraid of losing it.
but when the fear of losing it accumulates, we will be losing more.

its for your thought. true, no?

New Balance Klang Pacers 1/2 Marathon (7/6/09)

i did it! i made it!

okay, i ran and jogged like a snail all the way! something to be proud of - i did not walk at all because i know once i walk, i will not jog all the way anymore. i couldn't feel my leg at the last 5km!

it was the half marathon- 21km!

i am happy! :)

the boyfriend accompanied me ran the last 200m to the finishing! :)

i am happier!

i have altogether 3 blisters, I think. :( The knee caps felt like it is going to drop out! I cannot feel the joint properly joined. What more, the pain which is medial to my foot which started to pain after 2km and now reached the ankle. Practically, I am not going to walk so much for a few days!

oh, pain! :(
i am happy still because i am satisfied with it.

thank you Ying See for accompanying me through out the run, it made the run more relaxing and fun! :)

It wasn't easy, but it paid off. its always 'just a bit more to go.'

the pain

its time for the disease to attack. its back, the insomnia.

every time i run, there is a pain which i cannot describe on my left foot. slowly, it pulls the ankle to pain along too.

why can't I endure the pain? why can't I distract myself from it? why is my body treating it like a foreign feeling, which must be diminished?

WHY??

i am afraid, not only the laziness that make me run less; the spirit that I once had for running has gone; the feeling for me to complete the half marathon without giving up halfway is fading; the cause of the pain which is never cured ever since is troubling.

i don't want to disappoint myself. maybe I shouldn't have signed up in the first place- being peer pressured. I don't want to disappoint those whom got pressured from me and then followed me unwillingly signed up for this, and the one whom encouraged me all the way to never give up (not even if my foot got to be amputated).

i asked myself today while running- why do I run? what is your purpose of running today?

now I ask myself, when was the last time I ran because I love running? honestly, its been a long time. maybe a few months.

Mei Jiun, the Ipod you bought for my birthday was helpful today, it made me ran although it is just that small distance. I remember how I used to tell you about running and sports, about the club that I am in... and made you came into conclusion and be happy for me that I have found what I like, and bought me the red Ipod. :)

What if?

if i say

if i say i am happy, i may be lying.

if i say i am happy, i may not be lying.

i need to find the See Wei back, who does things only because she wants to do it, and no influence.

anonymous

We convince ourselves that life will be better once we are married, have a baby, then another.

Then we get frustrated because our children are not old enough, and that all will be well when they are older.

Then we are frustrated because they reach adolescence and we must deal with them. Surely we’ll be happier when they grow out of the teen years.

We tell ourselves our life will be better when our spouse gets his/her act together, when we have a nicer car, when we can take a vacation, when we finally retire.

The truth is that there is no better time to be happy than right now.
If not, then when?
Your life will always be full of challenges. It is better to admit as much and to decide to be happy in spite of it all.

For the longest time, it seemed that life was about to start. Real life.
But there was always some obstacle along the way, an ordeal to get through, some work to be finished, some time to be given, a bill to be paid. Then life would start.
I finally came to understand that those obstacles were life.

That point of view helped me see that there isn’t any road to happiness.
Happiness IS the road.

Happiness is a voyage, not a destination.

There is no better time to be happy than… NOW!
Live and enjoy the moment.

-Author unknown

Well, I read this from Ken Hon's blog. I think everyone should read it.

Have a great day ahead everyone!

believe - 22/5

but i am not letting go, i believe there is still much to believe in.

you know the feeling of.. someone is just always there for you no matter what?
whether the tree falls and obstruct your way, whether the storm is here, whether that person is having a bad day..
they are still there for you?
i know how it feels and i am grateful. :)

i have my boyfriend and very very supportive friends; the old ones and the a few months old friends. they would call to check on me making sure that i am okay and remind me to search for my old self back.

i know, i need the confidence i once had, and the die-die attitude.

to levin, yes i owe you for that, in 1.5 months.

now, i can run and do anything i want! :)
but i have made a deal with the boyfriend, its the death sentence, no way of me turning back. :(
but me like it! :)

this is what you call paradox.

when i know you are always there for me, i am always there for you too.

where the rainbows end

i stalked an old friend of mine's blog! *random*

i have to admit, sometimes once things are uttered, there is no way you can take your words back, no matter how much that person loves you. he is hurt, hurt by what you have said.

i know all of us love being spoilt, i have to admit i love being spoilt too.

guess, it was just like the book I am reading now 'Where the Rainbows end' where the cardiologist realises his marriage is already after the honeymoon period and that he and his wife are no longer attracted to one another. who says a doctor must marry a doctor? both wouldn't have time for each other, just like what it is written on the book. When he actually gets to go home and sleep after a day's on-call, the wife needs to leave home for her shift. :(

Somehow, I just felt like saying, we should appreciate things around us and never expect much.

The higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment..

*****

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Angel! :)

15th May

once in a while, eventhough you are standing or walking in a crowd, you might still feel..

lonely.

it makes me wonder why sometimes.

its been a long time i didn't go out with my silly friends, Yen Yee and Kelsey. So, we went out to Jeth's Cafe yesterday night to have a drink, and then the mischievous us took jenga to play. Its not fun if there is no proper drink to accompany us, thus lead us to ordering a bottle of Heineken.

i am not a play-game-person! sure drink one!

ho-ho, I was the first to make the jenga fall. I am not as bad as Kelsey because she made it fell twice! :p And, Yen Yee is the pro!

then we were so random, Yen Yee suggested we should drive to the graveyard to just have a look, which scares Kels and I. Then, I suggested we should go to the general hospital to hang out, look at any handsome doctor on call at 12am! Kels thinks that Yen Yee and I were crazy. Lol.

No life, I call this. No where to go, I call this. But, its fun! I haven't been laughing so much I tell you, every minute there is something funny.

Tomorrow, 15km! Yes, we will just all do it. All you have to do is run and compete against yourself, not others. Beat the time you set for yourself, and be happy about it. As for me, I will run at my own pace, trying to finish the race for myself.

I will never do something for someone else because that motivational drive won't bring me far.
I am doing it for myself.
This is passion, this is my drive, my call.

Run well to all participants! :)

why?

after the exams, the target is to lose some weights which i have gained in a month.

preparations for the exam was crazy. thus, lead to eating almost every 2 hours!
exam papers were crazy too, leading to more eating now.

well, after 4 weeks of not running, i went for training yesterday. the smart me went without having lunch and my breakfast was a cup of mocha ice blended. this brought me to hypoglycemia during training. i learnt my lesson to at least eat something before training, this is not fun. not even reaching 1 km, i felt like throwing up and my head was dizzy.

but i have a 15km run this Sunday!

so, running at my own pace, slowly.. like a tortoise, together with my comrades.

this is not fun. i don't know how i am going to run through the whole 15km this Sunday. I hope there is no hill-ly up and down!

maybe I have lost my drive, my motivational drive to run. I tried searching it back, but I failed.

why am I making myself so upset and disappointed nowadays? why am I not doing any good?

why?

its over for now

i guess.. its time for me to pray harder now.

i really don't want to feel so pessimistic, which is going to be necrotism soon.

:(

how to enjoy life when i am worried? :(

life is sad and complicated.

oh, and can someone teach me how to turn over someone who is ego to be less ego?

its star trek at 920pm later!

i am sleepyyyy... due to too much information drainage. somehow, i am surprised at myself, wondering how did i even survived my SPM, which has 11 subjects and for sure more than a weeks' exam?

amazed.

i miss my best friend.

something/everything

i only know something, but not everything!

so, yes.. i am praying for the best.

please do not torture me.

*prays prays*

no matter what, i will try my best.

to all my batchmates, ALL THE BEST!

what is limit?

"push the human limit to the maximum", that was what i have been told.

the human limit is not just what you thought you can do. its more than that. take running for an example, you sign up for a 12km race, when you have never ran for at least half of it, 6km. i am sure, you will have doubt, to whether you can finish the race or not. but once you have started running the 1st km, you will soon run the second, third... 10th km, and the last 2km.

you ended the race in the qualifying time.

the night before the race, you were worried, as to whether you will give up half way and call the ambulance or to get the finisher's medal. but now!

you should be proud of yourself. you have MADE IT!

the first race, 12km.

more to come, from 5km to 10km to 15km... and 21.1km in June.

if i don't push myself to the limit, i will never know what i can achieve. same goes to everyone that reads this. try running a 2.2km for the first time, you will know. you may just think, its just 2.2km.

"never underestimate anything, including the distance of the route." i have been told.

true story

have you ever wonder why people always leave?

well, just this morning, i read a letter, written by K to C; you can count that as a confession letter and also the giving up letter.

i have never seen someone being able to love and sacrifice for another person like this guy. he put in all his heart to make her feel happy, be with her when she's upset. but what did he get at the end of the day?

disappointment.

therefore, he decided that it is time to stop loving her.

because it is not worth.

how long would you wait for someone and still love her/him?

ask me, and i will tell you - DON'T wait, for all you might know, you are missing out something even better just because you are hanging onto something that you are unsure about.

when people stop loving you, they leave you.
but some, they stop loving you, but they are still there with you.

p/s: i am not talking about my life story here. just an experience on what i read. :(

so touching.

my angel

maybe its been a long time since i last saw a real adorable baby who will make my heart melt.

and, she's a baby girl i saw today. :) she's a malay baby girl, but i silently gave her a name, Angel.

i almost kidnapped her.

or, should i say, i want a baby too?

hahah.. at 20!

it felt so good when you put one of your fingers in her hand, and she would grab it.

then, open her little small eyes

trying to smile..

then yawn.

was worried when she wanted to cry so many times..

but i don't think i mind holding her if i was capable of.

she's a neonate! just came to this world yesterday. :)

awwww..

i will miss her, my angel with yik hin as my buddy for loving this baby!

drowning

i was sitting by the window in one of the wards in the hospital today, i observed the movement of the clouds, the weather. and i ended up writing how i felt in this poem.

tatkala di sisi tingkap,
awan kelihatan putih
dibelakangi biru,
ia mendung,
ia cerah,
demi perubahan menurut angin.

adakah cinta juga demikian?
mendung dan cerah,
berselang-seli.
pasang dan surut,
berselang-seli.
tiada yang cerah
buat selama-lamanya,
masih tercari-cari
masih menantikan,
saat itu - cerah selama-lamanya.

at the every moment, i felt, relationship is just like the weather. there's always a sunny time, and rainy time. why is it not always sunny?

why?

when things already look so bad, and things are getting out of hands. i am alone, what can i do?
i still have to act strong, going through the heavy rain that blurred my vision just to prove people that they are wrong. i am supposed to live this life for myself and only myself.. but it seem like, life is all about satisfying people, pleasing them, trying to make yourself look good.

help.

argh

just when things seem to be so anticipating..

.. and just when i thought some things are getting better..

...

...

i don't know.

it just somehow ended with a dis-opinion talk which i hated, due to a person and life.

life sucks, don't they? they just kept disappointing you.

doubt

many a times, i will start to ask myself if i am in the right course, doing the right thing, will i be able to survive through it knowing the journey has the amount of unexpected and unseen torns i can see when i go mountain climbing. yes, i would say the path is much tougher than climbing the mountain.

besides handling the path, there will be other paths which suddenly or knowingly that emerges from the path, going to the right or left and here they come, joining from one to the other. now, everything is getting more complicated, more stress is put on the shoulder.

till, i felt, i couldn't breathe.

yes, you read that, and i am not kidding.

there were times, in fact more than once when i thought i should quit. i shouldn't continue making my path more difficult. do only what i can, and not what i want. how naive i can be before this? thinking that if i want something, there must be a way to achieve it, although it seem almost impossible because i might not have the capability.

it became worse, when i know of things i hated to know about. it pulled me down, real down, almost into the well where no one can ever get to save me. this is negative, everything was negative. i tried to find my way out from the maze, which almost suffocate me, unfortunately i think i am still in it.

how long will i survive the maze? i wonder. why am i doing this? i could just give up, and the maze will solve itself and let me out. why am i still holding on? can i make it?

no, i don't think i am emotional. but somehow, things just look bad.

*****
to you know who you are, i am really proud of you! you have walked out from the darkness of the relationship that you were once in. and as told, i am loving you at 200%! and forever more. you were right, behind every POPULAR girl, there is a BEST GUY FRIEND. :) and you should know that, i am there for you, a phone call or a text away too.

happy and still happy that you made it!

12/2

cornettos.

sushi.

surprises!

must be you. no one else. :)

THANKSSS bf!! :)

dreams

i am free at the moment, but busy at other times.

i want more than 24 hours a day!

i want less work.

i want less stress!

i want more fun!

YES YES YES!!! :D

i WANT to buy an island and live happily ever after there.

oh no.

this new year had been real real normal, of course other than getting those red packets.

why??

is it because as you grow older you will feel like this?

or

when you are loaded with upcoming stress then it becomes like this?

i really don't know.

i have one more day off and oh no, it starts. the going uphill filled with rocks and and yet muddy road.

i still have lots of unfinished work. why am i procrastinating??

urgh!

CNY '09

Happy Chinese 'Niu' Year to all!

May this ox year bring the ultimate happiness, ultimate good health, ultimate good luck and everything ultimately positive to all!

Moo~

bedtime story

my boyfriend, my hero. :)

i seriously stayed for another 39 hours again! not my fault having insomnia, alright? sighs.
you know how i eventually got into sleep after that?

...


...


...

the boyfriend called and told me a bedtime story! :)
*moses number 1*

yes, and soon, after saying goodbye on the phone, i slept! <3

39 hours.

i almost outwake a houseman! :( just, almost!

i was awake for 39 hours yesterday. i just couldn't sleep, and not like i don't want to sleep. see the way my pimples stayed for months and still popping even more, and you will know the importance of sleeping my fellow friends! you know how i got to sleep at the end of the day? drink! drink the cough medicine! yes, that was what i did! ):

holiday is seriously holiday. i have done nothing, achieved nothing! all the plans i had before holidays are kind of put on hold just because i kept procrastinating! LOL! i AM a bad girl.

yeaps, MJiun will be back in 2 days time! (: (:

my early '09.

what have i achieved since the brand new year?

1. i patiently waited and suffered the 'miss you' syndrome because my boyfriend had exam on 2nd and 3rd!
2. i went shopping on the 1st, 2nd and 3rd of January.
3. i went for a small hike and a waterfall expedition in Kuala Kubu Bharu on the 4th! :)
Its A-W-E-S-O-M-E! i cannot wait to go again!
4. i stayed at home on the 5th.
5. i went out with the boyfriend to One Utama for 2 movies! So, yeah my first 2 movies of the year that i have watched is 'Ip Man' and 'The Spirit'.
6. i went to Sweet Bean Cafe with my college mates, namely: Kevin, E Li, Kai Jia, Pei Li, Ning Ning, Wei Keat, Guan Teck, Yi Jet and Carr Men to celebrate my birthday on the 7th of Jan.
7. then, that on the 7th night, i went out with Yen Yee and Kelsey to AEON, Lavendar and then mamak till 12 plus, just because they want to be the first to wish me!
8. went back to high school on my birthday morning just for.. fun! :)
9. went to the beach and had Kajang satay with the boyfriend in the late afternoon.
10. its the 9th today, and i think i should go to sleep again, soon! *its 430pm now*

More to look forward to!

2009 (:

First of all, HAPPY FANTASTIC NEW YEAR to everyone! (:
May this year 2009 bring everyone lots of joy, happiness, great health and success!

Secondly, I was thinking if I should change my blog layout, because its a new year? But, I like the colour, the butterflies, and everything about the current layout. So, maybe not.

Thirdly, I would love to thank my fellow friends; primary, high school, college and uni friends for being such a great company throughout my year 2008 and clearly, you guys have made a difference in my life and more meaningful by leaving memorable footsteps. May this cow year bring us more exciting and memorable events for us to treasure as we go on! (:

p/s: If you love bedtime stories, I think you should go and watch 'Bedtime Stories' which is in cinema now!

'You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.'